I Going To Cry I Wanna Finish My Steps But I'm So Tired And I Feel The Binge Coming, I'm So Frustrated

“its seems so long,

i need someone”

i wont stay up late, again!

and then i stay up late again.

The BIGGEST motivator i currently have is the fact that my bio-mom used to be a MODEL!? You (unfortunately) can’t find her on the internet.

im gonna go insane i was f4sting like the best damn 4na and went down 2kg in js a couple days but now im in a cycle of f4sting then b1ng1ng and then f4sting GOD atp only those 4na gcs with super strict rules or h3ll even a damn coach

considering this for the rest of february or march

what if i only ate an apple a day for the whole of January

Sensitive topic!

TW: svc1d3, mention of 0v3rd0s3, 4lch0h0l p0¡s¡0n¡ng, and s3lf h4rm as well as other issues, please read at your own risk.

basically, I probably won’t be active anymore, I’m planning on km$ today, sometime during the night. I’ve had a cranky shitty 4ss life. I don’t look forward to anything anymore and I feel like absolute shit. I’ve got everything ready, the letters, all that bs. The only thing I want for now is the final step. No quote can turn my the cogs in my brain, no kind of guilt will convince me otherwise. This has been the only thing I look forward too. And I truly, entirely cannot fathom how much I desire the mere suggestion of d34th. I feel as if my whole world lights up. And for once, as soon I take the final step, one final push, I will feel like a true free bird. Of course, I’ve always wanted to at least have some fun before I d¡3, I plan on dr¡nk¡ng down the p¡11s I’ll take, I used to just merely cvt myself yet the pleasure of bl00d flowing out is no longer enough.

goodbye cruel world, sincerely, everyx.

this being on my diet coke, the only thing i got from subway, is hilarious. thanks for the motivation <3

I just binged. fvcking two bread pieces with Nutella, a piece of cake, and juice. Oh my gosh. I’m gonna kms. (It’s like 2k+ calories all together btw.)

yesterday morning i was making a healthy low cal breakfest (like 140 calories) and my dad praised me and even took a picture of me...i have never been happier, like yessss, unkowingly support my ed!!!