I Love Porridge

no offense but reading is literally the cure to brain rot and there’s no work around to reading books

man i love running so much, its just so much fun😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

It pains me to carry such a sad soul when, at heart, I'm such a joyful person.

the sunrise never fails to make me smile, its so pretty. nature is incredible

what I think will happen if I message my mutuals

sh recov / harm reduction tips for those of us who are in the trenches and may be considering recov or trying to get there one day

⭐️ some people can't just throw away their sh tools and that's okay, but what i suggest is if you don't already to keep them in a hard to get to place so that you can reduce how often you may try to sh

⭐️ try to limit how often you relapse but dont put too much pressure on yourself because it may stress you out worse, id suggest slowly relapsing less by spacing them out more over time.

example: every day -> every other day -> twice a week -> once a week.. etc you get the point, if you cant stop cold turkey then try to reduce how frequently you sh because its just like any other addiction out there.

⭐️ keep in mind it takes about 3 weeks to make a habit, when going fully clean its really rough for those first few weeks but it wont stay that way, that isnt to say you wont have some bad days but it wont be every second.

⭐️ avoid buying new sh tools and new blades, if you plan to reduce or recover then stick with what you have so that you wont automatically have a new tool to hurt yourself with.

⭐️ if you burn yourself or you sh for pain specifically i suggest using (skin safe!) hot wax because it still hurts like hell when it hits the skin. usually these are used for like kink purposes but that also makes it easier to find in a way.

⭐️ for people who cut or need to see blood, some alternatives that work are using red food dye and applying it to something thats pointed but cant actually cut you and dragging it across your skin. another thing thats out there that provides both pain and blood without injury are sh pens! its hard to find these due to the internet censoring things however on platforms like tiktok using slight censorship in search like "self hrm recovery pen" will likely bring you to some results that could help.

⭐️ if you're broke like me or a minor etc and cant purchase tools online to help, id suggest using household items like thumbtacks for harm reduction. something that personally helps me is actually making fake wounds that are like.. actually fake and not real. to do this without any professional products use thin layers of liquid glue as your base and shape it like a wound, and use paint / makeup / whatever you've got. if you have sensitive skin this will probably make you itchy or poses a risk for a skin reaction so do be wary of that. when removing it should just peel right off as long as its fully dry, just be sure to wash the area afterwards.

⭐️ other reduction tips are the typical things people will say to do, surround yourself with friends and safe people if you can. surround yourself with safe items and things that make you feel comfortable and avoid triggers to your best ability. if you seriously are trying to recover please delete tumblr as consuming sh content will trigger you back into it fast.

if anyone has questions about specific circumstances or situations my ask box is open <3

recovery isnt easy but i really hope this helps somebody out there who may be considering getting better.

have you been kind to trans women? what about trans women who don't pass? trans women who are bald? trans women who are fat?

how about fat trans women who don't carry their weight in a way you consider feminine? or people who are transfeminine but whose gender identity doesn't involve the word "woman"? transfems who can't or don't take feminizing hormones? transfems whose gender is fluid and not always feminine?

and if you are somebody like this: have you been kind to yourself?

draft poem i wrote the other day about self harn and dealing with urges

TW under the cut: sh (burning)

I need it, I crave the pops of the flesh against the almost frozen heat, the metal kissing my skin as flames send that familiar smell to my face. I hunger for the sting of relief. Each time I pull my hand away from something warm that voice in my head says "stay"

i found even more fairy dresses

while i admit, ive posted this on my private twitter previously...

has anyone ever noticed how flowers look like fair dresses, in Tinkerbell they use like, flower petals as clothes, but i reckon fairies are smaller than that, i think they wear upsidedown flowers as dresses