Fuck Anti Depressants Just Give Me A Syringe Full Of Pure Serotonin

quote of my life

im so convinced i was some kind of really bad person in my past life and my current life is my punishment for what ive done

''trans lesbians don't have heterosexual privilege"

Oh

I'm not saying I'm mentally ill, but today I bought a new teddy bear because I had been looking at it for a couple weeks and finally caved into the temptation. Yet the moment I put it down on my bed, I felt an overwhelming urge of guilt and disgust and the need to throw it away and apologize to my old, trusty teddy. And now the new one won't stop looking at my with its devilish eyes and I actually want to get rid of it even though it's like brand-new but I also DO NOT want to touch that thing anymore.

Call me manipulative, but I want someone to reach their hand out to me when I start to walk away.

I want to feel like I'm worth running after. I want to feel like I'm wanted.

I'll get lynched, but trans women most definitely have privilege over trans men when it comes to receiving trans-related medical care, and yes that has to do with amab privilege, which is also very real, even if you transition and you're "no longer a man" for lack of better words. There's an inherent privilege to being amab. Obviously being a trans woman doesn't come without downsides, but you also retain some amab privilege, especially in healthcare treatment.

And the fact google images is now *actually* completely useless due to it being flooded with AI generated images..

"You'll be fine" - Dude, it's been 10 years...

I'll forever be a transandrophobia/transmisandry/whatever current term is truther

the fact that transmascs get relentlessly attacked and harassed every single time we try to make something/spaces for ourselves (the mlm flag, transandrophobia as a term, fucking forcemasc) is in and of itself telling of how people view us.

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want