#DiaryOfAGirlMisunderstood

#DiaryOfAGirlMisunderstood

The Letter I was Afraid to Send

It wasn’t that the feeling for you wasn’t there. It wasn’t that the love I have for you was momentary and based on temporary stimulations - I just wasn’t ready.

Thank you for being who you are, for the man you are. I wasn’t ready for the direction you were heading in. I wasn’t ready to hold your hand and be your eyes when you lose your way. I wasn’t ready to be part of a storyline that I felt I felt I had no part in.

Parts of me were scared of you, scared of the depths that exist within you. My own biggest fear was that my own inhibitions would throw rocks on your path and slow you down from getting to your destination. I was scared my flaws hindered you from being the man you want to be. I was scared that my own shortcomings would become your shortcomings because pain has a way becoming contagious when you’re in a relationship with someone who feels as deep as you do.

At that time, I felt that I was being considerate. Now I realize how selfish I was I can admit I should’ve been better and that you definitely deserve better

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4 years ago

Masterlist

╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮ Basic - 기본 ♡ Beginners Masterlist ♡ Hangul - 한글 (한국어 알파벳) ♡ Korean Numbers -  한국어 번호 ♡ Calendar -  달력 ♡ Korean Sentence Structure ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯  ╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮  Vocab - 어휘 ♡ Christmas - 크리스마스 ♡ New Year -  새해 ♡ Grocery Shopping - 식료품 쇼핑 ♡ Korean Onomatopoeia -  한국어 의성어 [part 1] || [part 2] ♡ Clothes - 옷 ♡ Animals - 동물들 ♡ Idol Phrases - 관용구 ♡ Fruit - 과일 ♡ Veggies - 채소 ♡ Spring - 봄 ♡ Body - 몸 ♡ Family - 가족 ♡ Korean Slang / Shortened Expressions ♡ LGBT+ Vocab - 엘지비티 + slang ♡ Korean Homonyms - 한국어 이의어 ♡ Summer Vocab - 여름 어휘 ♡ Birthday Vocab - 생일 어휘 ♡ Occupations - 직업 ♡ Space - 우주 ♡ Phone - 전화 ♡ Traveling - 여행 ♡ Money - 돈 ♡ K-ommon Korean Phrases ♡ Colour Vocab - 색깔 어휘 ♡ Directions Vocab - 쪽 어휘 ♡ Cooking Vocab - 요리하기 어휘 ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯  ╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮  Korean Culture - 한국 문화 ♡ Korean Age - 한국 나이 ♡ Shoulders in Korea  ♡ Batchim - 받침 ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯ ╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮  Grammar - 문법 ♡ Conjugation - 동사  ♡ Particles -  문법적 입자 ♡ Counters -  복수형  ♡ -고 싶다 - want ♡ -ㄹ/을 것이다 - future tense ♡ More than - 보다 더 + comparing verbs ♡ -잖아요 - As you Know ♡ Adding plural counters to NOUNS ♡ The many versions of: 같다 ♡ Useful Verbs + How to Use Them!           [part 1] || [part 2] || [part 3]  ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯  ╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮ Helpful Asks - 질문들 ♡ FAQ ♡ 이다 Conjugation ♡ “Is this right?” Korean Translation ♡ “How are you?” Korean Translation ♡ 이에요 / 입니다 Uses and Rules ♡ 행복하다 - meaning ♡ 난 네 블로그를 사랑해 - I love your blog ♡ Why did he say 언니??  ♡ Korean Spacing ♡ Am I a Koreaboo?      ~ Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3  ♡ Why is it -서 instead of -고? ♡ Korean Texting Abbreviations ♡ Sentence Structure ♡ Gender Neutral Korean Titles ♡ Difference between 저/제/저의 and 나/너/나의 ♡ Korean Difference ♡ Motivation to be courageous while speaking! How To: ♡ Staying Motivated / Focused ♡ Study Grammar! ♡ Improve Handwriting ♡ Improve Pronunciation ♡ Not Struggle with Hangul ♡ “Introduce Myself” (자기소개) ♡ Say you’re studying Korean for fun! ♡ Speak confidently in Korean ♡ Pronounce ‘ㄹ’ ♡ Go from basic beginner to intermediate/advanced ♡ Elongate Texts in Korean ♡ STOP Translating in your head! ♡ Say ‘Thank you’ in Korean Recommended: ♡ Textbooks ♡ Apps ♡ Websites ♡ Tips for Beginners ♡ Webtoons Korean Differences: ♡ 선생님 vs 교사 / 실 vs 방 / 늘 vs 항상 ♡ 이야기하다 vs 말하다 ♡ 친구 vs 벗 ♡ 담요 vs 이불 ♡ 저의 vs 제 ♡ 당신 vs 너 ♡ 은/는 vs 이/가  ♡ 안녕하세요 vs 여보세요  ♡ 어 vs 오 ♡ 안녕히 가세요 vs 안녕히 계세요 ♡ -말 vs -어 ♡ 생선 vs 물고기 ♡ 봤어요 vs 보았어요 ♡ -는 것 같다 // 같다 // -를 것 같다 ♡ 함께 vs 같이 ♡ 않다 vs 아니다 ♡ 노래 vs 송 ♡ 외 // 왜 // 웨 ♡ 좋다 vs 좋아하다 ♡ -ㄹ/을 수 있다 vs (잘) 못+verb ♡ 진짜 vs 진심 ♡ 오래되다 // 늙다 // 낡다 ♡ 심심하다 vs 지루하다 ♡ 위해서 // 때문에 // 덕분에 ♡ noun+verb VS noun+을/를+verb ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯  ╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮  About Me ♡ Introduction -  자기 소개 ♡ 깜작이야 vs 감자탕 ♡ How I got my Korean Name ♡ My Study Routine ♡ My Face ♡ SK101 IG & TWITTER ♡ 10k Follower Special - About Me ♡ My YouTube Channel ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯  ╭─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╮  Reading Comprehension ♡ Little Red Riding Hood - 빨간 모자        Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4 ♡ Diary - 일기        Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4 ♡ My Friend Jiyeon        Part 1 || Part 2 ╰─━━━━━━━━━━━━─╯  under construction constantly

4 years ago

weird asks that say a lot

in

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

7. earbuds or headphones?

8. movies or tv shows?

9. favorite smell in the summer?

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

12. name of your favorite playlist?

13. lanyard or key ring?

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

18. ideal weather?

19. sleeping position?

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

21. obsession from childhood?

22. role model?

23. strange habits?

24. favorite crystal?

25. first song you remember hearing?

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

28. five songs to describe you?

29. best way to bond with you?

30. places that you find sacred?

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

32. top five favorite vines?

33. most used phrase in your phone?

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

35. average time you fall asleep?

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

38. lemonade or tea?

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

41. last person you texted?

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

44. favorite scent for soap?

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

47. favorite type of cheese?

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

51. current stresses?

52. favorite font?

53. what is the current state of your hands?

54. what did you learn from your first job?

55. favorite fairy tale?

56. favorite tradition?

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

62. seven characters you relate to?

63. five songs that would play in your club?

64. favorite website from your childhood?

65. any permanent scars?

66. favorite flower(s)?

67. good luck charms?

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

70. left or right handed?

71. least favorite pattern?

72. worst subject?

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

82. pc or console?

83. writing or drawing?

84. podcasts or talk radio?

84. barbie or polly pocket?

85. fairy tales or mythology?

86. cookies or cupcakes?

87. your greatest fear?

88. your greatest wish?

89. who would you put before everyone else?

90. luckiest mistake?

91. boxes or bags?

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

93. nicknames?

94. favorite season?

95. favorite app on your phone?

96. desktop background?

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

98. favorite historical era?

4 years ago
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.
Thought-Provoking Digital Illustrations By Davide Bonazzi That Expose The Flaws Of Our Modern Society.

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3 years ago

“Hiding your hurt only intensifies it. Problems grow in the dark and only become bigger and bigger. But when exposed to the light of truth, they shrink. You are only as sick as your secrets. So take off your mask, stop pretending you’re perfect and walk into freedom.”

— Rick Warren

3 years ago

“The acquisition of a book signalled not just the potential acquisition of knowledge but also something like the property rights to a piece of ground: the knowledge became a visitable place.”

— James Wood, Serious Noticing: Selected Essays

3 years ago

I need to know

"I find talking hard I find explaining impossible And I find trying arduous

It was never easy to talk It was never possible to explain And it was burdensome to try

But I realized that to comprehend I had to write I had to read and I had to know more

And for that I will always love writing for I can finally communicate I shall always love reading for I see and understand myself through the characters And I will keep trying to know for I have to try and need to know"

3 years ago

Bonds are burdensome.

They are what makes life worth living,

albeit the feeling of burdening someone else with your own emotions or lack thereof obliges you to take a step back or running away on a 180 degree path in comparison to the one you’re on at that moment.

You begin craving that loneliness that picked at your heart every night,the one that made you cry your own blood since tears did not hurt enough.

I want to turn back in time,or keep being the myself i knew before giving out pieces of it to others.

Opening up is not much of a good decision sometimes,or easy to accomplish either.

Everything just hurts.

It’s overwhelming.

It’s flooding my well.

Oh wait—

how long has it been since my well last had a shape?

What is happening around me?

What am I?


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4 years ago

05/28/2021

Fear and excitement.

Greatest oxymoron to have ever lived inside of me.

There is such a lack of balance in my soul,emotions seem to be extending their roots further and further in that which is my tangible existence.

A grandiose future awaits me,every cell in my body and every sliver of my being seems to be propelling themselves so as to reach the right spot in time.

It feels preternatural,as if what life made me go through is not anywhere near describable as pain,it is no more than the path i had to go down to in order to achieve my current standing.

I am no more than myself,thus I am all there is to live.

4 years ago

Start,start,start...where to start....

The vibe around me has changed since the New Years.

Being aware of oneself is hard although seemingly doable as far as I've tried.Nonetheless,being aware of the people around you as well as everything that comes with the everyday life is not a joke.

Empathy makes part of it seem right,despite how much hurt I feel afterwards.

It's so tiring honestly.

The good thing turned to be that I actually accomplished the most important (almost everything) goals that I had set for myself in 2020.I'm a new person as a result of that.

There's still so much going on but my giddiness is obfuscating every thought.

Well,looks like I'll have something to ponder over the next month.

2021/01/06


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4 years ago

02/27/2021

It feels warm inside.

Like a boiling well that makes you feel fuzzy;

Its water ascends so as to reach the furthest parts of the body.

Its heaviness is counteracted by how lightweight the body feels.

It reminds me of the aftereffects of getting drunk.


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