ANYWAYS, What I Meant To Post About Was Gonna Be Sculpting, I Found A Subject I Can Enjoy

I feel so overwhelmed in many different ways right now ;-;  at that I was working on another sculpture but I think I made it way too big, it’s gonna use all my clay and I’m not sure it’s worth it, I mean, it will look good maybe but it’s just all my clay :( I even tried bulking it out as much as I can without it breaking but...idk

(Please dont watch if you dont want to see possibly triggering things involved with relationships, emotional abuse or alcohol ..)I hate to post this, I have so many of these though, most too long to post but.... I JUST NEED to feel okay, I'm always scared, always hurt emotionally and called bad things, I wish I could show it all but it's embarrassing at the same time....I'm weak, no matter what I say or do I'm called or told horrible things. I might look through some of them and find significant ones I can post under a minute... Maybe I am too open...

Feel so discouraged, I hate this feeling, the type of feeling that makes me want to scrap what I'm working on. I put so much time into things for nothing it feels.

I started drawing this before Revelations 2 came out but ended up having some personal troubles/art block so I never finished it, I still might in the future, the line art here isn’t done since they are missing their bracelets and some other details as well as the background I was going to make (which should be easier now with actual gameplay I can reference now.) But yeah, hope anyone who sees this enjoys~ :D Full view it though please, the initial image makes the quality look horrible..

Why must I be so slow when it comes to drawing :c

Finally uploading something after a million years. —– Another lapis Lazuli c: This was a commission. She is rather tiny compared to the others so far. (Four inches including base) I wanted do make the Chille Tid version of her. c: —– (I made this awhile ago but wanted to wait until this was in the owners hands but they gave me permission to post before that. 8D) ~Reblog if possible, it means a lot.~

I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not but, I don't have a computer anymore, haven't for awhile now, I'm not inactive, it just takes a lot longer to get sculpts done. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I haven't uploaded any drawings because of this, I don't know when I'll be able to draw again, if anything I'll try my best to invest in a sketchbook and drawing supplies to actually draw and seem more active. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I miss posting all the time, I have SO MUCH I am working on when it comes to sculpts and so much more ideas yet barely enough time (considering I don't have a JOB or social life, I need a time chamber that turns a single hour into a 24 hour day.. so I could be productive and other stuff as well as have a whole day each day to work.)

this is me being organized, others tell me messy but everything is placed for convenience, think of an art programs setup, mines all customized for ease of use. Ugh, apparently me doing art is useless I'm told since it's not bringing in money (well sorry that I'm trying to establish the means nessesary to be productive first, to gather the knowledge and skills needed to work in a timely matter, get the materials to make things more efficient, and the time to do the stuff needed just to do this. Already had everything else I care about taken away so why not the last thing I have right?) Anyways, finally unpacked my art stuff, finally moved without breaking my stuff: D HAD to remix all my paints AGAIN after lack of use (was using tinfoil, now using 1$ store stacked pill containers for paint.) I need to get back into drawing, might start off by trying to draw out designs/proportions for future sculptures, or idk, drawing I love but it's hard to stay motivated on it. (I need to actually use my computer again, haven't in quite a long while.) Sorry don't get how me posting a picture turned into a weird vent thing.

I only have enough clay to finish Sans.

I want to sculpt Peridot, I just can't think of I way I wanna make her.