Maya, as I promised you, I'm writing you my success story. It's quite a wild one, so please bear with me.
My journey started during the Angel era, when I was struggling with the void state. I tried everything I could think of to get out of it - every method, every meditation technique, affirming, intention, lucid dreaming, and even coaching from various LoA experts, including those not so well-known. I was desperate for a breakthrough, a key to unlock the life I deserved. I would have done anything, even ate dirt if that was what it took.
At that time, my family was going through a rough patch. My abusive father, a police officer, divorced my mother and left us with nothing. We were homeless, living out of our car, while my dad was living a comfortable life. He had a new girlfriend, a younger woman, and continued to be respected in his job. Meanwhile, my mom, who was a victim of his abuse, was labeled a liar and lost everything. I was filled with rage, towards him, towards the world, towards the jury that declared him innocent. I wasn’t safe in this world especially being homeless, women and children are the most vulnerable to sexual and physical assault. I was scared, unsafe, and had nothing aside my mother and siblings.
I wanted to enter the void, not just for myself, but to give my family a better life and to bring justice to those who had wronged us. I was at a point where I was harming myself, but I couldn't give up because my family needed me. I remember messaging you, Maya, pouring out my story, begging you to help me enter the void. Despite your initial hesitation, you responded with kindness, sharing some personal experiences, and reassuring me that I wasn't alone.
Your words gave me hope. You made me realize that many people who find the law have gone through, or are still going through difficulties. If they could overcome their struggles, so could I.
So, I decided to let go of the void. Not because I didn't believe in it, but because I had elevated it to a status akin to a genie that would magically solve all my problems. When non-dualism and other loa concepts were introduced, everything finally clicked. I realized I didn't have to be angry, or try to be someone manifesting master, or do all these fake methods. I have always known that my family and I were meant to be happy.
For a month, I went through a process of shedding my ego. It was uncomfortable, and there were times I found myself fighting my own thoughts, telling them to shut up. I was separating my ego from myself. You, Maya, had once said that this process was similar to withdrawal symptoms of someone quitting drugs. This thought comforted me. I was becoming someone new, my old thoughts weren't there anymore.
Living in my car, I began to see it as my mansion. My mom's crying turned into laughter, my siblings' whine for food turned into jokes. We pretended that we were living our dream life, and after a while, my siblings joined me in this game. We would come "home" from school and yell at each other, pretending that the house was so big that we needed walkie-talkies to communicate.whenever I needed to steal food it was because we owned the place and can take whatever we want, not because I had to.
One day, we parked at a field, and I started imagining my life. I tried to become the clouds by thinking I am and accepting that my consciousness could be whatever it wanted. I got my siblings to do the same. We became the flowers, then the sun, then the stars at night. Even though physically I was still in the car, mentally and emotionally, I was living my dream life.
When I woke up, I was in a large room. It was decorated to perfection. I heard my siblings running around, throwing toys, and my mother laughing with a man, who's laugh alone sounded like gold. I explored the house, and it was beautiful. There was no yelling, no violence, only laughter and love. My mom introduced me to her boyfriend, and he was holding a newspaper that read that my father had been arrested for domestic crimes and fraud. He was losing everything.
At that moment, I realized that I had done it. My mom was happy, beautiful, and loved. My siblings had plenty of toys and clothes, and our house was filled with love. My family and I were finally living our dream life.
I have been living my life for about a month and now, and it has been blissful to say the least. I go to a well known private school and I am the top student. I am apart of many clubs, and also spend a lot of time volunteering at domestic shelters, and speaking to victims of intrapersonal abuse. I have made friends of people who volunteer with me, so it’s nice to have people who care about the same thing I do.
I am also apart of my writing club, and found comfort in reading and writing and have decided I want to be an author once I graduate. I have always wanted to be a writer but they don’t make enough money often. But now not only do I know I will be successful but my family has enough money to last us multiple generations plus some more. My Bio father had gotten much to what is coming to him and he will be going to jail. I hope he drops the soap but I have let go of my anger with that barbaric fool. So has my mother who has also recently gotten engaged and I get to be her maid of honor. She has a friend group of mothers from school and I have never seen her happier. My now father treats her like a goddess and treats everyone like that. He spoils my mom and us with gifts and luxurious trips. He also spoils the help such as the maids and cooks and never treats them below us. He does not expect anything from my mother except for her to be happy and spend time with us. He is kind selfless loving and respectful. the real definition of a man. I adore him so much and I’m so happy to call him my father.
I find great joy in the little stuff. I love cleaning my room. My bio dad was a hoarder and the house was always a mess because my mom was the sole provider though my “bio dad” made much more. He instead used it on hookers, alcohol, and drugs. Pathetic excuse for a man I know. I love going shopping, as I don’t have to look at the price tag. It feels normal, there was no shift. This is just life constantly changing. I have 5 pets and spend great time with all of them, and they are all so loving and adore me. I love school, and doing my homework, taking tests, assemblies etc. i love talking to my teacher about my ideas and how I can improve. They’re always so encouraging and kind, and I have never experienced that. I also loveeeee having crushes hehe. I never had time nor the “looks” for that prior to these past few months, but I receive a good amount of attention from a lot of sweet man and the “what if” aspect of having crushes is fun. I just love being a teenage girl, something I was not always able to say. I love the world and the people in it, the creations I bring and make, and all I did to make it what it is. I never worry what happened to my old self or life. It died, it doesn’t exist I am here right now with them and the old story is gone. Like an author erasing a part of a story she doesn’t like and never producing it, I did the same. My one true reality and I am so blessed.
Also big thanks to bloggers like @awarenessis @starbursts777 @consciousnessbaddie for introducing this concepts to Tumblr in a simple and kind way. Love to everyone in this devoted app.
Congratulations on your astounding success story 🥹 Your journey is a testament to the power of the human spirit, and it's an honor to hear about your transformation. This is beautiful wild tale, but it's your reality, and it's absolutely beautiful.
Your story is a powerful reminder that we have the power to shape our reality, no matter how dire our circumstances may be. It's a testament to the power of belief, determination, and the human spirit. I'm incredibly proud of you and wish you and your family all the happiness in the world.
This body is totally imagined. As I sit here on the couch, with my eyes closed, I see images of the body, I feel sensations associated with it, and it all happens within my perception; there’s nothing external in it. I open my eyes, I look at my hands and feet, and these so-called parts of my so-called body are still images and sensations within my perception. I can separate them from the rest of my visual world and call them my body, but that separation is still an act of mind, and the images are always of a past, even if the past happened a nanosecond ago. They’re part of a movie of reality; they’re not reality itself. Why would I believe that a movie on the mind’s screen is real? Every time I try to focus on what is real about this body, it’s gone, and the “I” who focuses is gone too.
There’s nothing solid. Not only the dream but even the dreamer is forever gone. And the dreamed body—I sit it, I stand it, I walk it, I feed it, I brush its teeth, I dress it in clothes, I put it to bed at night and lift it from bed in the morning, and none of that is real. It’s all a projection of mind. To imagine that there is anything outside the mind is pure delusion.
Even physical pain is imagined. When you’re asleep, does your body hurt? When you’re hurting, and the phone rings, and it’s the call you’ve been longing for and you’re mentally focused on the conversation, there’s no pain. If your thinking changes, the pain changes.
Byron Katie
<also response to the question "What happens if we die non-realised?">
King Bharat said, "The whole Earth is mine, but when I die, I will belong to the Earth." This means that because of attachments, one again becomes bound. It is therefore better to surrender everything from the beginning. The object before the mind at the time of death decides what will be the nature of next birth. The desire directs the next progression after death. Therefore do not get involved in the world, because as soon as you deviate from your own Being, you will fall into the trap. Don’t forget your true Self. Your own body is sure to fall one day so why fear its death even today? One who is free from the slavery of the world is the real Saint. Recognize that the entire world is perishable. Let it perish today instead of tomorrow! Don’t care for it! Don’t bother about this world of the five elements. Only if you live like this, will all of the eight Siddhis be pleased with you.
The nature of the powers of your Being is eight-fold:
(1) The Power to become minute like an atom,
(2) Power to become huge,
(3) Power to be very light in weight,
(4) Power to get whatever is desired,
(5) Power to have control upon animate and inanimate things,
(6) Power to wield tremendous strength,
(7) Power to enjoy any pleasure of the senses as wished,
(8) Power to make anybody do as you wish.
Your life as it is, is very petty. However, if you remain in unity with your Self, you will get everything as soon as the will arises in the mind. Those who do not deviate from their Being are "My True Devotees." Therefore, remain so, with all of your mind, body, and speech.
Morning, 25-11-1934 (Nisargadatta's Notebook? Entry, while learning from his guru)
https://www.tumblr.com/realisophie/726214306745712640/followed-this-anons-advice?source=share
So I saw this and decided to give it a try too on a fun example 😂 I woke up and my cat always walks away when I go to greet her in the morning and usually I'm like awww 🥲 but this time I imagined myself as my cat and thought about how much I loved Vanessa and wanted to snuggle with her lotsss. After getting into that knowing feeling, I let it go and forgot about it. Until now (like an hour later), when I'm trying to meditate and my cat is suddenly super loving on me and sitting on my lap which she hasn't done in ages 😂 I was almost about to think it didn't work at first, cos right after I imagined and returned back to being Vanessa, my cat was going about her business as usual ignoring me lol. But I just ignored all that (both thoughts and the dream) and decided to let it go and not think about it anymore. I think that's key. Also not taking it seriously helps with letting go (it's all just a dream so do whatever and have fun, right?). But like help, I need to pee rn but I don't want to disturb her (I think she plans on napping on my lap) and I also don't want to undo her loving on me 🫠
Aww that's so cute 💕
You pointed it out well that is really not that serious, you really cannot take anything seriously the more you experiment and see the truth because,
Well, it's not real!
As Ada said in an ask sometime "you people don't take me literally" 🤣
This is def what makes and unmakes it!
Your attitude is the fact. - Nisargadatta
The way you demonstrated this you can demonstrate everything.
I just discovered non-dualism 3 days ago and I'm struggling to realize that this is natural. I want to get back with my ex-bf but I know he's with another girl right now and that makes me sick... I want to reconcile with him WITHOUT him dating another girl while we're separated. However, I saw physical evidence that contradicts this, and if I ever "succeed," I feel like I've changed something, not that "it was always like this", so it's not "natural" anymore. I don't know what to do.
There is no continuity. You recreate the scenario every day. It can be just as natural that he was never with anyone.
Read this
How funny because I went through something similar. Although I never made her disappear I just used her as his incentive to realize nobody could ever be as perfect for him as me and he made the biggest mistake of his life 🤪 the whole thing worked out in my favor; his behavior toward me changed magnitudinally. THIS IS YOUR DREAM. REALIZE THIS.
And if you reaaaally really find it hard to think that she never existed think of what you want her to represent to him.
Also read this on thoughts and be totally indifferent to any thought that arises that he's not absolutely head over heels for you.
And you can check the questions about past/future in the list so you understand why there is no time.
Finally, he was made by you and for you, what are you creating her for? 🤣 you bored like that? You like making yourself suffer? Are you masochistic? Forget her. She never was 😴
Heyy i'm the anon who sent that long ask, thanks for answering my question. You explain things so well, your posts are very easy to read. For some reason I feel connected to them :) so what i'm understanding is that you need to just stop identifying with the "ego" and accept that you're only the awareness, not connected to any of it, just experiencing it. All you have to do is to be aware of what you want and let go of the things you don't need (this reality for example) and this is very easy since neither the ego or reality IS you or connected to you, right? Shifting is only hard or takes long when you identify as the ego, but when you're only awareness all you have to do is become aware of it and it's instant.
(So sorry for rambling again, I can't help it since the topic is very interesting to me, hope it's not a bother to you)
I really try my best to explain the things I know, but sometimes I forget that many of you don't know the basics of ND and I have to figure out how to explain it as simply as possible :-D
First of all, you as awareness are connected to everything, because everything is you. The phone you hold in your hand, the friends you have, the food you ate. It's all you - just forms of your consciousness. The body you are aware of, the family or the people around you - they are all you. They all exist because of you. Nothing is ever separate from you. Any world or reality that you can imagine is just you. The source behind every seeming appearance is only you. Once you realize that nothing is not you, and give up the separation between the physical and the imagined, you as awareness can transform any form into anything you desire in an instant. You will realize that your life has always been a lucid dream.
When it comes to the “ego”: There's a quote by Rupert Spira that I really like:
“We do not have to eradicate a separate self in order to be knowingly eternal. There is no separate self to be eliminated. To attempt to dissolve or annihilate a separate self simply perpetuates its illusory existence. To discipline the separate self is to maintain the separate self.”
Calling the false self "an ego" makes it more important than any other form of your consciousness. But why should the ego be more important than any other “object” in your apparent physical reality? IT IS ALL YOU. Don't give importance to the ego and its thinking, but please don't ignore your responsibility either. There is a difference between indifference and ignorance. Simply notice everything that is happening around you. Be present. Stay in that awareness until you are fully aware of yourself. Once you do that, the rest is effortless. You can shift with just a thought. For someone who hasn't fully accepted that they are already pure awareness (which is absurd, otherwise you wouldn't be aware of reading this answer), they should really put their awareness on their DR and there's no way, you won't make it.
Please read this success story, it perfectly describes how you can align your awareness with your “desired life”:
hello Fleur, I hope you're doing okay and having a great break. !!!
I know there's still about a month until you come back but I'm leaving my success story in your inbox regardless, lol :D
my journey with the law hasn't been easy, I've gone through the 5 stages of griefs not even kidding, Sammy Ingram who honestly fucked up my life and just many other disgraceful things but I won't get into that and instead I'll jump right into the success.
I finally FINALLY read Neville (a round of applause would be highly appreciated) and Edward + only stuck with one blog, yours.
I unfollowed all the blogs I used to follow, except yours; I took a screenshot of your posts that made it click for me, deleted Tumblr and applied.
(posts I saved were: "don't force just be" and "consciousness is the only reality")
In just 2 weeks of me applying, my life has honestly CHANGED. and I'm not even exaggerating, I made a list of what I wanted for this month, gave it to myself in imagination and moved on with my life, because let's be honest... would I be in Tumblr over consuming 24/7 if I had my desire(s)? NO!
the day after I gave my desires to myself in imagination, and just KNEW I had them... I started seeing my reality quickly shape into what I had written in my list, now I KNOW people are going to ask me about time.
and I'm just going to leave this right here.
the more you focus on "I'm still waiting for my desires to reflect" the more waiting you'll have! because the 3D only REFLECTS.
now onto the things I've manifested ! :DDD
-my parents giving me a Tesla for my birthday.
-a FREE trip to Venice, with my friends and family also for my birthday.
-huge sums of money out of nowhere.
-being a social butterfly.
-knowing how to drive + getting my license.
-20/20 vision.
-hairless body.
-my parents being more sweet and caring towards me.
-my sister being fully free from depression. (huge one)
-my desired boyfriend, with everything I've imagined and more.
-being able to shift instantly, I just came back from a 2 year shift at Hogwarts! :,)
-free clothes, and I'm talking about a BUNCH of expensive clothes.
-living THE life, parties every weekend, going out with friends, etc.
-blonde hair overnight.
-eye color change.
-bigger lips + perfect teeth.
-always being the perfect student, and having a perfect school life.
this is just some of the things I had written on my list, I'm so very thankful for you and your posts.
thank you! <3
i’m so sorry for the late response love, this was about a month ago! regardless, congratulations on your beautiful success. ♡ wishing nothing but the best for you.
How do you shift on command? Like what is the process you go through?
Well, honestly, there's not much of a process. As I said in my pinned post, it was all about changing my mindset and focusing my awareness on the fact that I'm already a master shifter.
When I want to shift to one of my realities, I close my eyes, I simply think, "okay, I want to be at [insert X reality here]" I think of where I "left of" and I'm there. I know its going to happen because I feel it in my heart, really strongly. I don't force the feeling obviously, its something that happens naturally. I know that I shifted because... well, imagine you are in your room, you close your eyes and go to the living room. Even if your eyes are closed, you still know you are in the living room, right? Also, as I said, there's no process. When I shift from one reality to another, there isn't like... lights, or weird visions or any "symptoms", its instant. One moment I'm here and the next I'm there.
The same for wanting to wake up in my reality. I remember where I "left of", what I'm going to do when I wake up and then go to sleep.
One time thought, I actually shifted with my eyes open. I was using my phone, and I was like "wait, I could also shift even while doing something. I don't have to stand up or have my eyes closed". So I started imagining using my phone in one of my other realities, and my vision started to shake so fast, like when I say fast I mean FAST, and the two realities were overlapping (like when you overlap two images you know?) and then this reality started to fade while the one I shifted to became clearer and clearer. I repeat, this process was ridiculously fast, it all happened under seconds.
I have something to share. I debated making a throwaway or just sending it to one of 4dbarbie's backups but I settled on this because I just was too impatient to share
---Backstory: I've been patiently applying all that I've learned from 4dbarbie's asks and letting go of chunks of the ego mind---
Today, while at the beach with my group of friends, I realized that I was still somewhat stuck. I let go of big parts of what "I" thought I knew, but I still felt like I was missing something to have my realization. If you ask why I was thinking about that at the beach, there has been nothing on my mind aside from realizing my self since I discovered it. Nothing interested me more than this.
---Disclaimer because I'm sure I was only able to do this because of how free my mind was and what is now cannot be compared to the way my brain worked months ago---
So you can have a mental picture, we were all on the beach, some of us, mostly the girls, were sat on our towels. Conversation was going on around me and I was nodding but my mind was elsewhere. I was thinking what could I do to prove it to myself not only that I understood but that I can apply it.
So while on the beach, I was thinking... what seemingly impossible thing could I do to prove I can do it. Gee, an appearance change in the moment, that's pretty "hard", isn't it? So I decided on that. I didn't want to be something small like change my hair color, but completely change my face so that I can show I can. If I couldn't, so be it, I would continue disbelieving I was this character until I felt even freer. But I still wanted to try.
Because I am not fully realized so I still had some resistance, I thought- what would my ego have the least resistance me looking like? I was looking around the people at the beach trying to pick someone I had no desire to look like, but also no fear of being that person.
---- Backstory again: my original body had bleached blonde hair, tan skin and green eyes-----
So I picked a brunette, pale and with brown eyes. I thought in my head for what a cute brunette would look like, then I leaned back on my towel, closed my eyes and imagined being IT for a few seconds. Again, I didn't care if I succeeded, I just did it.
I didn't sit long like this, after I saw myself looking like that, I sat up again and looked at my reflection in my phone.
I looked exactly like I saw in my head.
I swear to God, I was so panicked- my heart was beating wildly in my chest. I was freaking out so bad internally. I could believe it and couldn't. You know when something shocking happens that ego just can't accept? Yeah, it was like that.
Then, I looked at my friends to see if they would notice any change. I called out to one of my guy friends (who was standing up) to pass me the water so that I could bring attention to myself. He gave it to me no problem, the girls turned to me too when I spoke up and nobody said a thing. I was scared to ask. What was I even supposed to ask? I felt like my mind was breaking.
I stood like that for minutes and nobody said a thing to me about looking different. I'll be honest I was really spooked, my heart was still racing. So I decided to go back to my "original" appearance to see if they say something then.
---The process was the same---
When I stood up this time I did it more confidently, because I didn't feel like I would be caught doing something crazy since everybody knew me as this body. I changed "back" no issue, and nobody said anything. AGAIN. This time I dared ask if I they think I changed somewhat, and they all looked like me like ? what do you mean?
My heart was beating again but in a different way. In euphoria, in joy. I still felt like my brain was completely broken but i was so happy I felt like I could fly.
My next instinct was to imagine myself with what used to be my "desired" appearance, I felt like I just gained a superpower I could lose so I had to do everything quickly, before it goes away.
There was no resistance now that I did it once, none at all. I was aware of no impossibility of changing.
We spent two more hours there and I felt more alive in my new body than ever. It was like the whole world opened to me.
On the way home, while I was in the car (one of the guys was driving) I felt like I now had the time and opportunity to imagine again. I was relaxed, and just daydreaming, but in the present. Just imagining myself with everything I wanted with no expectation.
...and they all came extremely quickly. They didn't spawn but some I got in the most bizarre of ways, Ways in which my ego could have never thought of receiving them. And everything I imagined happened until the end of the day. It's night now when I'm writing this and I'm getting ready to sleep, thinking of things to "wake up to".
Now I know a lot of people aren't going to believe me, but that is really not my problem. I am still processing it myself to be honest. I don't even know how to go forward with all this "power".
Anyway, you truly imagine everything and everything is in your mind. Including other people. No one exists without you, including the body.
I already have an idea for what to do tomorrow and it's to try and be invisible.
I'm thinking of what else could be really important to say so others can also do it... the lack of doubts? Or me not thinking of it being impossible rather? Having it in the back of my head always that the only real thing is ME? Everything I learned I learned from the 4dbarbie account, I didn't read any books because I don't like reading.
Lastly, just try without expectations of it not working. Accept it could not but still do it, if it doesn't now it may in the future, all depending on your ability to let of of the reality of the body and seeing your real Self.
I think that's it, PEACE OUT :)
Finally posting this one as well... sorry I left you hanging for so long 😭😭😭
Wish you well!! Continue to have fun in the dream ♡
To the anon asking about money so much. The so called money can happen in whichever way you want.
If youre anything like "my" bundle of thoughts you're in the part of infinity that likes to keep a smooth narrative. I woke up one day and instead of being relatively broke my coinbase account had $278k and I also had like $1.2 million in my brokerage account, as well as $12k in my regular bank account. I still had my apparent regular job, house, context, just more money. I did write all this down one night and decided Id wake up with such. Tbh, it's a non event and I no longer experience a bundle of thoughts that needs SUCH a smooth apparent narrative. This is just an example for you. Money is actually boring now...but I feel you and yes it is possible to "dream up" money in whichever way you want. You don't do it with your thoughts though...it's all like this imprint "within" so go within and find that "imprint" that is your entire "dream" imprint = that, " "
Also, don't even think about it from the bottom - up, this is a top - down thing. Everything works it self out accordingly. Dont bother with what "others" will think, it'll all work itself out from the top to the bottom. "You" are at the top...the rest is just a dream.
Thank you for your insights and great explanation, anon🫶🏻 I love the way you phrased things, it’s really refreshing :D the expression “bundle of thoughts“ makes so much sense also it’s really cute somehow?