Why Are You Gay 🤨

I’ve been to more funerals than weddings.

For a long time all I could think about was, “please dear god, don’t let me have to bury anyone else. I can’t handle it.”

but I did, somehow. for the eighteen years I’ve spent alive, I’ve buried loved one after loved one with no reprise wondering when would I ever catch a break. The answer is.. well never.

I’ve always dreaded funerals, I’ve never been good at saying goodbye. It’s too permanent, too real, and some part of my brain cannot comprehend that I won’t see this person again.

It doesn’t feel real, I wonder if it ever will.

I try to think of funerals now as a way of celebrating someone’s life, rather than losing them to whatever comes next. It provides little solace for the hole they leave behind, but a small comfort nonetheless.

I look forward to the day I can think about them and not have my breath hitch, the panic setting in, and think of them fondly without breaking down. maybe that future will never come for me.

The fact that Buck and Eddie can just sit in comfortable silence and be at peace with each other

LEWIS IS RED, GIRMA IS BLUE, FRED VASSEUR AND SONIA BOMPASTOR I FUCKING LOVE YOU ❤️💙

telling myself we will get garvez and buddie canon because if we don’t I might go insane

Catching up on criminal minds evolution while waiting for 911 s8 is a special kind of torture when I ship both garvez and buddie

If I had a nickel for everytime i shipped the blonde sunshine character (who’s also traumatised and has adhd) with their close friend (who is Latino and who has a heart of gold and big brown cow eyes) and who they hated at first because they’re the new guy but then grew to love shortly after except now they’re not with them and are instead in a love triangle with a white man who’s name starts with T then I’d have two nickels- which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice

YES WE DID!!! She looks so good in blue 🤭😌💙

chelsea got a good one x

my dreams are a scary place to be because they always mean something

do you want me to beg for ravi to be a main? bc i will. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

CUCU YOU FUCKING LEGEND, FUCKING GET IN THERE BOYSSSS 💙💙💙