08.04.2025 (tue)

22.04.2025

No studying today :(

Napped till 7pm after school cuz I had pretty bad back pain n cramps. Then did smn for an hour or 2 b4 I had to go pick up ma czn at the airport :P

18.03.2025 (mon)

( MAGIC bc I frkn LOVE them 😭 )

Hellloo BEAUTIFUL hoomans ;)

Today was a whole lot of procrastination and barely any productivity :( Did about 3 hours, but around 2 of those were just my live class, and the rest went into writing notes and HW. Not exactly proud of today, but I’ll make up for it tomorrow by working even harder !!

Also, after iftar, I usually feel tired, but today? I was like sooo full and sooooo ded. Like, I couldn't even lie down. Idk why probably because I was stuffing my face with literally everything in sight

Got a chem test on Chemical Kinetics this Thursday, so I need to cover at least half of it tomorrow.

*sigh*

It’s already 1 AM, and I have no idea how I’m gonna function 😭.

Gnnn lovesss

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25.03.2025 (tue)

HIIIIIIIIII <33

Plans for the day:

Complete notes of lec 3 of srifp + study

Live lec (we'll finish the chapter off today)

Live lec - notes + study

Finish off srifp 😭 + maybe questions ?

Study lec 5 of solutions

That's ittt ! See ya later ;P

11.03.2025 (Tues)

thought today was monday wth

Went to bed at 2 AM today and still couldn’t finish my chem notes or review the bio lecture (ughhhhh). Also ended up sleeping instead of studying before school, so that’s fun.

Anyways, here’s my to-do list for the day: bet ya can't tell how much I love to-do lists

Rev bio lec

Finish up chem notes (finally) and study it.

Watch lec 2

Live class

Math,chem,eng,bio hw

Manifesting productivity... or at least, survival.

Hope y'all have an amazing day ahead !

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19.03.2025 (wed)

Hey chat ;)

Was Lowkey dying from cramps today as well. It was such an unproductive day, and honestly, the cramps aren’t even an excuse at this point.

Anyways, attended my live lecture, did my math HW, and kinda revised for tomorrow’s chem test. Gonna wake a lil earlier so I can go through it again cuz I'm pretty sleepy rn. The plan for tomorrow is to finish off Lec 5 & 6 b4 attending Lec 7 live.

I haven’t made proper notes since Lecture 3 😭. The given lecture notes are there, but I know I’ll miss stuff if I don’t write them myself… except it takes SO long and I don’t have the time. Ig I'll have to finish it all off on the weekend ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽

Got LOADS to do this weekend, so stay tuned for that 😀👍🏻

Anyways

BYEEE BABES

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Study time ≈ 3:00 hrs

(including the duration of my live lectures— always include em in my study time)

"What if you mess up? What if you realize you’ve already forgotten the materials you start studying?What if you initially focus but feel like a sedated zombie after a while?"

Can't you change these questions in your mind to - What if you can actually focus well for a long time? What if you do good enough to at least feel relieved? What if you can feel some sense of control over your life? What if you didn’t forget as much as you thought? What if you're way more competent than you thought? What if consistent hard work actually brings what your childhood self had desired instead of disappointments and exhaustion? What if it solves your lack of appetite and anxiety and thought spirals?

What if you asked the second set of questions more often? You already subconsciously know it would've lessened your stress a lot. Can you please stop thinking of self-hatred and pessimism as inseparable parts of your identity?

You're throwing yourself on the verge of extreme uncertainties. Do you deserve this much indifference? Ik you're afraid. But there isn’t any way to eliminate the fears without working on things while being afraid at first.

And even if you're lagging way too behind, you can manage to improve better than you're expecting at present. Trust this for at least a little time and trust everyone who trusted you.

24.04.25 (thu)

Day (15/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 1:00 hr

Had Bio practicals today and forgot to bring my lab coat—thankfully, I was able to borrow one from a friend in another class. The experiment was on onion cells; we had to identify the stage of mitosis, but I couldn’t find anything on my slide. This is my second practical in a row where that’s happened, and it’s honestly starting to feel a bit discouraging. I was in a pretty bad mood after that.

Messed around till 4:30, then joined my live class—but about an hour in, I ended up falling asleep. I was so tired that I decided to nap properly. Woke up at 7, went out, and only got back home at 1AM.

Had a lot I wanted to get done today, but that clearly didn’t happen :( Also, we’ve got a bunch of people coming over for lunch tomorrow... right when I have tons to do. Classic timing.

Gn loves ~~

BYEEEE

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Hellooo Peoplee !

I'm just a girl in her last year of school time flies so fast wth preparing for NEET (an entrance exam to get into med school in India) trynna survive. I started this blog to document my journey, hold myself accountable, and stay consistent—cuz God knows I need to.

A little about my journey so far:

- Joined an online coaching institute in 11th and, well… fucked around and as a result have the whole 11th syllabus as backlog🤡

Sooo basically, my plan/goals are to:

» Stay consistent with my 12th-grade coaching (attending live lectures, tests, workbooks, the whole deal)

» Slowly cover my 11th-grade backlog (maybe a lecture each day— not sure yet..)

» Crack NEET on my first attempt and secure a govt. medical seat.

So if you’re also on the grind, let’s keep each other motivated! Feel free to drop a message or an ask.

Here’s to staying disciplined and getting that govt seat 🥂✨

Also @midnightatthemalfoys

WEEKEND TO DO LIST (march 20 to 22)

Bio - record work

Bio - complete diagrams

Bio - study rifp

Bio - complete notes (coaching)

Chem - study chemical kinetics

Chem - ws

Chem - lec 5,6,7 fml

Chem - NOTESSSS

Phy - study electric charges & fields

Math - study matrices

These are the stuff I HAVE to do. And if I have time I have to start doing questions and covering 11th backlogs cuz I haven't started YET 😭

03.03.2025

Guess who recovered just to get hit with a deluxe, extra-crispy version of the same illness? Yep, ME.

Thought about just accepting my fate and rotting in bed, but then I remembered that MAMA DIDN'T RAISE NO QUITTER (…Twitter… I’m sorry, I physically had to....it RHYMES).

Despite feeling like I got run over twice, I still managed to study before school like- who even am I? Manifesting that I keep this streak going. Did a lecture on organic nomenclature before school, another after, and went over Lecture 1 from the morning before a live class. Technically understood things from the live lecture, but let’s be real—I need to actually sit my ass down and study it before it evaporates from my brain. This whole “two 11th-grade lectures a day while balancing 12th-grade coaching and school” thing? Yeah, that’s a recipe for my brain to just ✨exit the chat✨. And as much as I planned to prioritize coaching, my school teachers are lowkey terrifying, and I refuse to be that person who just sits there staring blankly when asked a question.

Also, why am I suddenly so productive while being sick?? This is not on brand for me. Normally, the second I get a fever, I’m KO. But today? Laundry? Notes? Started them, then realized I desperately needed sleep. I still have notes to review, which I usually cram on the bus ride to school (because morning sleep? Never heard of her). Napped on the way back (but not at home so slayyy ~~ 😌). Planned to finish my notes, but decided to let my future self suffer through that mess in the morning, along with some physics and math reading that I have left.

Will I keep up this academic weapon arc or crumble under the weight of my own choices? Stay tuned for the inevitable breakdown.

xoxo, ur favorite hooman <33