People Seriously Underestimate The Long Term Effects Of Constant Loneliness

i hate snapchat memories lol. just saw some pics from 5 years ago of me and my friends on call when we started online school during the pandemic and it fucking stung way more than i anticipated. these people don't talk to me anymore. they've all moved on with their lives and im still drowning in the past by myself, wishing they'd come back to get me. they have partners and new friends in our old city, and i got forcefully pulled away to a whole new province without my permission. i get to start all over again with friendships and family i don't want in my life.

i miss my friends.

I genuinely hate when people start harping on slow walkers.

Sometimes, there’s a reason we’re walking slow. Some of us have cerebral palsy, some of us have chronic pain, some of us are walking slow so you don’t notice our gait ataxia.

SOME OF US ARE DISABLED AND ARE PHYSICALLY UNABLE TO WALK ANY FASTER.

Whatever the reason, taking 5 more seconds to wait for the person to get to where they’re going is not going to kill you. Chill out, suck it up, and learn to not be so impatient.

it's pathetic how much i fucking hate you. i can't fucking stand it. i hate that you're out with your fucking friends and ignoring me. you know i want you to be happy but why can't you see how much of my happiness you're responsible for. why the fuck did you get me addicted to you like this and then just fuck off.

saw a quote that said

"when little girls can't fix their fathers they will spend the rest of their lives trying to fix their lovers" IM SICK TO MY MF STOMACH

how the fuck do you make friends.

everyone else in my life gets to go hang out with their friends and go home to their partners and i hate it. i really hate to say that i hate seeing their happiness. it's not that i don't want them to b be happy and lead good lives, it's that im a fucking dumb jealous asshole.

everyone makes it seem like them and all of their friends just clicked together. there was no awkwardness at the start and everything just went so smoothly. meanwhile i can't get past the awkward small talk phase with everyone and it's completely discouraging. I dont want to end up alone. i don't wanna be forced into the shadows while i watch everyone else have a life besides me because i just flat out didn't deserve to have one.

tldr someone pls become unhealthily obsessed with me and i will offer the same in return

Staying clean is lame i want to relapse every single day.

craving the kind of intimacy that requires surgical tools

I'm the best worst decision you've ever had.

loving me is like watering a dead flower