Hey Kid. Im A Computah. Stop All The Downloadin 

*touching his extremely defined six pack* who did this to you.....

i'm just thinking abt how many providers i've had who heard my story abt psychiatric abuse + immediately individualized it. "oh, you're so smart + kind+ obviously sane! you didn't deserve that! i can't believe they gave you that diagnosis when you're obviously not like that! they shouldn't have treated u like that when all you did was xyz! they shouldn't have assumed you were crazy like that!"

there is always a third person haunting this interaction- the patient who does deserve that, who is "actually" that evilscary diagnosis, who did Have To be treated like that. if i want to soak up the affirmations of these providers, i must be careful to never become this third person. i must affirm myself by setting myself apart from her- i did not deserve to be treated like that because i am not like that.

i reject this. not only was i like that, she + everyone else like that deserve everything i deserve. they are my siblings + my friends + my lovers. i do not need to cut them out of me to believe i deserved better. i refuse to comfort myself through the lens of someone else's dehumanization. the tragedy is not that psychiatric violence was applied to someone who not insane enough to warrant it. the tragedy is the violence.

btw i figured it all out and life is about laughing with your friends & listening to your fave songs. you’re welcome

fishtober day 05:

redfin pikerel (esox americanus americanus)

I promise you, relationship anarchy is a good thing. Tell your friends you love them. Go on dates. Domme them. Take them to weddings. Have a relationship with the sub from the dungeon where she does your taxes or you mow his lawn. Help your neighbor plant begonias and become their honorary granddaughter. Become friends with your partner’s partners. Cuddle with your book club and talk about Polysecure or something, idk.

I don’t care. Just stop expecting every relationship to follow a specific pattern and instead find the beauty you both want in your specific relationship with that other person.

Life is more than the nuclear family and strict pseudo-Christian mythological ideals.

I think i should be allowed to carry my stuffed toys around. All the time. Everyday. I need the support.

cannot emphasize enough

intellectually disabled people do often have strabismus, autism, and whatever the fuck else you're throwing them under the bus to make the ableds like you better for

intellectual disability is commonly comorbid with many disabilities, both physical and neurodevelopmental, to the point that it is considered a sign of them

you are not a better, more valuable disabled person than intellectually disabled people with the same disability as you

and someone assuming you're id is not a fucking insult to you

my side blog that i use more often: @paranoidtranssexual

Do you ever wanna bond with someone so bad you’re like “damn i wish we were knights on a dangerous quest”