Okay I'm Hiding Now

I want amber to adopt me

Better than you could aspire to be - Tighnari

Angst time! This is an isekai, not as long as I feared it would be. Tighnari is the one that goes into a different world, it'll make sense. Gender neutral reader, sad ending

Tighnari worked in a fast food place in his own world. See, he was a student, and the only place that would willingly take students were such places. He grew to hate this more intensely as he continued to work, somehow keeping up with his studies in botany. The smell of the food that smelled so unappetising after working around the food items for so long, the fact he had to scrub his ears to get food out that had been thrown by a rude customer, and on top of that he had people constantly pointing phones into his face and gushing over his 'cute ears'. He found himself daydreaming the day he could finally stop working in this hellhole, where he could finally enjoy his work in a field he loved.

City noises were excessive as well, the transport to his university not helping with anything apart from getting him from point a to b. Again, he knew people were taking pictures of his ears and shamelessly talking about how big they were. Some people said it must be a cosmetic, others saying that he was compensating for something else. Truthfully, he grew to despise them. The way people had no shame, the way some people even had the audacity to touch them without asking.

One day, he finished a particularly heavy shift, and he flopped onto the bed without even having the energy to stay awake. In his uniform, he tries to remind himself to change once he wakes up.

--

The next day, he wakes up in an unfamiliar forest. The flora around him didn't look familiar, the strange statue that loomed above and various other contraptions he was clueless about. He goes to check his phone, only to sigh when he realises that his phone was dead.

You hear the man call out, waking you up early, and you decide to go out to investigate. Looking over, you see a man in a strange uniform you never saw before. Sure, you usually stay in the forest, but you saw a lot of outfits on those who got lost in the forest and this was nothing like that. Walking down, you wave at the man, who looks up from the device in his hands.

"Hello! Are you lost?" You ask, seeing the man nod. "You are currently in Ghandara ville."

"Where is that?" The man asks. "I've never heard of that place."

"Sumeru? Teyvat?" You ask, the man in front of you only growing more confused. Looking down, you see he keeps glancing at the thing in his hands. "What's that?" You ask, genuinely curious.

"Oh, this is my phone. Do you have a charger handy?" The man asks, only to look more defeated when you explain you don't have one, nor do you understand what the phone was. "I'm from _, I work in McDonalds." The man explains, only to see you now confused.

"Well, I'm sure we'll figure out something!" You exclaim, hoping to cheer the man up. I am _, head forest ranger." You introduce yourself.

"Tighnari, Botany student and fast food worker." The man introduces himself.

You nod, taking interest in him stating he was a botany student where he was from.

"Well, if you'd like I can get in touch with a good friend of mine to get you into a botany course!" You start, before continuing."And you can stay here and work as a forest ranger!"

You expect Tighnari to go against the idea of being a forest ranger in an unfamiliar place, and he does hesitate for a second, but he decides to nod. Of course, you agree to train him up, and you show him to the room you were in before moving your stuff to someone else's room to stay with them.

Everyone meets Tighnari, who seems nervous for some reason. Thankfully, everyone was welcoming, saying he was sure to enjoy working as a forest ranger full time before they head off for their routes after you assign this to everyone.

--

"Please, he's really lost!" You ask, Cyno looking at you as you continue to beg him for the chance to let Tighnari into a botany course despite having no prior qualifications. "I think he's gonna be a good match for the course!"

"And how can you be so certain of this?" Cyno asks, not convinced. "Let's say he gets too attached to the world he isn't used to, as long as he wasn't lying. What happens if he wakes up back in his own world, only to miss the feeling of this one?"

"I'm sure he could adapt! He's adapted well to this one, and there's no harm in letting him in the course. Give him a shot, and if he isn't good enough then I'm fine with just taking him in as a forest ranger." You continue, Cyno closing his eyes. He knew you only spoke like this when your mind could not be changed, no matter how long the conversation lasted

"...Fine." Cyno finally lets out.

--

You work with Tighnari, and over time he gets adept with a bow. So, you decide to test him on his accuracy. To your relief, it appears he seemed to pick it up rather well, and you don't fully believe him when he claims he never used a bow before.

Turns out he was really good with his course work as well. You saw him work with his books often, even assisting other people with their own courses and keeping on top of his coursework.

The forest rangers really liked his company, and over time they grew more confident with their compliments to him.

"You're so good with that bow!"

"It's admirable how quickly you've been able to pick up these skills."

"Your medicine is better than what the head ranger does! Oh, no offence, _!"

"If _ isn't careful, you're gonna be taking the leadership role here!"

At first, you enjoyed seeing him gain confidence with these comments, but some of them really stung. You knew that while you were liked, people deemed Tighnari to be objectively better for the role of head ranger. He was doing really well with his studies, he was able to help people and keep his grades up, and on top of that he still had his spare time. You barely were able to keep up with all the withering zones, every time you turned your back one would materialise and make itself known to another ranger, and you'd have to take it on.

That was until Tighnari proved he was better with clearing these withering zones than you.

It felt like he was trying to make you feel awful for your lack of competency in your work, but he was incredibly friendly. You knew he was only trying to help, and that's what kept you from just giving up and giving him the position. So, you keep reminding yourself that these pointers you've been giving to Tighnari have helped him, and you were the one who got him onto that course.

--

Cyno sends you a letter, stating it was urgent. When you let everyone know you had to visit someone, you see them brush it off before they turn back to Tighnari. You don't spare a second glance, heading off as you hear someone talk about a dendro vision. As much as you wanted to talk, when Cyno required you it was never ideal.

--

Cyno looks particularly unnerved as he gazes at this portal in front of him. Turning, he spots you, and he waves you over.

"This is what I was warning you about." He explains. "This is Tighnaris world. I would have sent you with Tighnari himself, however that won't be ide." He explains, sighing out.

"Huh? But why is that a problem?" You ask, tilting your head.

"Since Tighnari obtained a vision, sending him back to his world would be less than ideal." Cyno states. "We need to send someone in his place. Or else, this portal won't go. He continues, looking over at you.

The look in his eyes is all you need to know.

"Oh man..." You huff out. "I have to go, don't I?"

Cynos eyes widen, shaking his head.

"Not necessarily, all we need is a non vision wielder." He begins. "We could send one of-"

"I'll go." You nod, Cyno opening his mouth as he tries to speak. "I was the one that worked so hard to keep him here, so I see it as fair."

You were also very insecure over Tighnari being classed as better than you in every way, but you don't dare tell Cyno this.

"...I'll miss you, you know." Cyno admits, a sad smile as he realises you were going to go even if he advocated against this. "Is there any way I can convince you-"

You shake your head, stopping Cyno.

"The feeling is returned." You admit.

Before you walk through the portal, taking Tighnaris place in his world, you give your best friend one long hug.

—# 🍨 MAKING OUT WITH THEM IN THEIR BEDROOM

A/N; <33

#ALBEDO;

The type of guy to orginal ask if he could paint you in the setting for your bedroom but actually finds himself, staring at you for too long. Nearly seconds later your lips have several greetings, and only find you both on his bed later, with your hands exploring his chest and his hands exploring your lower body.

#CHILDE;

Would flirt with you, for a little until his lips find themselves on your necks, hearing faint whimpers and moans leave your throat while his hands explore your body. And the best part were the lingering kisses you shared with him.

#DILUC;

The type of guy to be patient, and will only wait until you make the first move. Though once you nod your head in agreement, he will take no time, kissing you all over, lips, necks, cheeks, everything underneath. He takes his time as well.

#KAEYA;

You guys would already be making out before you even enter his bedroom, that’s why you would already have your legs wrapped around his waist and everything while he kisses you deeply. He likes the warmth of your lips and everything, brings joy to his eyes and souls.

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Longing For You

Pairing: Fem reader x Aether

Words: 10k+ I lost count

Genre: one-shot, platonic relationship, fuff, angst, slight crack if you squint

Cw // mentions of character death, blood

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Lonely.

That's what you are feeling. It's been 3 days you got stuck in this unknown land. You thought it was beautiful, it really was. But will you be ready to face what's in front of you?

You manage to survive with fruits like apples and cashews, at least that's what you thought the name was, because in your world they called it cashews. Even though it doesn't really give you enough nutritions, as long as you get to live you're okay with it. Heck there were almost nothing here. You wanted to explore the place more but there are monsters everywhere, and you- with no weapon, could only run and hide in hopes of not getting spotted by them. Will you ever survive?

Sighing, "just another day like this I guess"

you said before drifting to dreamland under a tree in a secluded area of the unknown land.

----

"She's still breathing"

"Paimon! What are you doing?!"

You could hear someone whispering- half screaming to be exact, at someone but you are more bothered at someone poking your arm with a stick. Groaning, you woke up and realized someone invaded your place. Ready to fight whoever that was, your actions suddenly come to a halt when you meet a pair of golden eyes and his tiny little companion. They were as shocked as you, well... I guess you are more shocked to see a floating kid beside the blonde boy.

Quickly, you hide behind a tree. Since you don't have any weapon to defend yourself what else can defend you other than a tree?

"w-who are you?! And why you can float?!"

you shrieked, the little floating kid crossed her arms and scoffed at your question. Why would she scoffed at you?

"excuse me young lady but we're the one who should ask you that!".

You just meet her now but god knows how much her high-pitched voice started to annoy you. The blonde boy beside her started to speak up before his companion could even say a word,

"I'm sorry she bothered you. I'm Aether, and this is my travel companion, Paimon. We found a group of hilichurls around here and we already fight them off before it could reach your campsite. May we know what is your name?" he asks as his pair golden orbs stares straight into you.

"Uh.. My name is y/n..."

He smiles, assuring you that they're safe and can be trusted, you slowly got out behind the tree when he stretches out his hand for a handshake. You grab his hand, reciprocating his action. "it's nice to meet you y/n".

----

"No"

"Aether c'mon please?"

"ugh fine"

It's been a month you had stayed in Monstadt, The Land of Freedom, and a month since your encounter with Aether and Paimon. She still annoys you though, but you're really grateful that she can keep the conversation going because it always turns awkward whenever you tried to initiate a conversation with people. You learned that Aether didn't come from this world too, separated from his sister by the unknown god and now is looking for her in Teyvat. Hopefully, you can go back home too.

You missed your family of course but you're also happy that there are people who willing to take care of you, especially Barbara. She treated you like her own sister, beside Jean. You learned everything here from Lisa and learned how to fight from the cavalry captain Knights of the Favonious, Kaeya. And Diluc? He's hot, but cold as ice at the same time and you went to the Tavern once, only to see him talking to a bard named Venti, about how the bard needs to stop drinking all of his dandelion wine before he runs out of it because of him.

Now, Aether is in front of you as you manage to persuade him to bring you to one of his adventures. He never let you tag along because he told you it's dangerous outside. Both of you are no vision holders, but he has the power of Anemo. It's still a mystery to you but he's an outlander so it would probably make sense why he can have such powers even without a vision blessed by the Archons.

"But! You only have to fight the hilichurls only while I take down those mitachurls, got it?" he says. Nodding your head aggressively, you started your journey with him as an adventurer.

"Let's go to Liyue!" Paimon says excitedly.

---

"That was close, thank you y/n"

Aether pants heavily, letting out a sigh of relief as you kick off the last hilichurl with your sword. Turning around to face him, you tell him it's nothing.

You three bumped into a hilichurl camp in the middle of the road of Bishui Plans. Unfortunately, those group of monsters noticed you before you three could even hide.

You were about to follow Paimon but Aether called you, you look at him as his face expressed shocked. You asked him what's wrong only him to point at your hips. You were confused so you look down where he's pointing at. Well now you're equally as shocked as him, if not because of the shining crystal blue orb hanging on your belt.

"What... I-I swear it wasn't there before?"

You whispered, questioning yourself because how did it get there? How did you even got a vision? What did you do? You know it's a vision because Lisa has taught you at the library back in Mondstadt. How? That was all in your mind.

You hear Paimon gasped, putting her hands on her mouth, "you got a vision! Let me see!". She flew to look at your vision before touching it to get a better look. "You got a cryo vision!" she exclaimed.

"Cryo? You mean I get the power of ice?" You question her. She nodded her, "Yes! Now you can help Aether to fight enemies!". Looking down at your feet, sighing. Aether asked you what's wrong and you simply said you don't know how to fight. Like actually fighting enemies with your own power, how to use it and how to handle it. What if you unintentionally hurt people around you? Aether chuckled at your response. You look up at him, tilting your head in confusion.

"Don't worry, I'll teach you"

----

"I wish kaeya was here"

"You don't like it when I teach you?!"

Chuckling at your friend, you said it's not that you don't like it when he teaches you. It's because "it would be easier if a cryo vision holder teaches me how to control the element", you says.

He let out a puff, while you were stroking Paimon's hair on your lap. She snores softly and you swear you could hear her mumbling sticky honey roast in her sleep. Giggling at her, you wonder how can she be cute and annoying at the same time. It's unfair you think. You turned your head to look at Aether and he was zoned out, as always.

"Mind telling me what's in your mind?"

You picked up his habits quite quickly, since you both attached to the hips all the time. You would notice he always does this when he's deep in thought. The same goes for him. You both can read each other like an open book.

He looks at you, smiling. Shaking his head and tells you he always thinks the same, about his sister. You smiled back at him, you assured him that you will meet her soon. And now, you both enjoy the calm breeze as you both watched the sun set over the blue horizon at the nearby cliff in Liyue.

"S-sticky honey roast... "

----

Annoyed.

That's how you feel right now.

This guy just keeps pestering you for 20 minutes now. You got separated with Aether as he got something to do with Zhongli, the Wangsheng Parlor Funeral Consultant. Aether wanted to let Paimon stay with you but you said you're fine on your own and you would enjoy alone time in the time being while waiting for them.

But you didn't expect this.

"Can you stop following me now?"

"Why would I?"

Rolling your eyes, you bump into his shoulder, or Childe as he call himself.

"Oh don't be like that girlie-" " I have a name shut up" you sigh for the nth time. You need to avoid this man, because he's one of the Fatui, you don't want to involve yourself and Aether with them. That's why you've been running and avoiding him at all cost.

"Well you never tell me your name girlie-"

"It's y/n okay? Now go you're getting on my nerve..."

you mumbled the last sentence. He only chuckles at your reaction as he enjoys it. You were buying some street food from the food stall and before you could give your mora to the seller, someone beats you to pay for the food. You were not complaining though, you didn't thank him either.

"Okay then but can I ask you one last question, y/n?" he smiles widely while you only look at him, chewing your spicy fish cake, unamused. His question however, almost send you to you death as you were choking on your food.

"W-what did you say?!" "I want to get to know about you"

Aether is not going to like this...

----

As expected, he was mad. No, he was furious.

"Why did you talk to him?!"

"I tried not to talk to him Aether, he kept following me when I tried to avoid him! To the point he creeps me out..."

Aether sighs, rubbing his forehead as Paimon watched you two arguing. Was this the only time Paimon shuts her mouth? Excluding the time she's asleep. She knows when to silent herself because this time, Aether is different in Paimon's eyes.

"So.. Did you agree?" he questioned, not giving you a glance. You shake your head, "No, of course I didn't. He's dangerous and he could hurt us if he has the opportunity..." Which is true. Childe is a harbinger, and you, just a mortal from another world who just got dumped to Teyvat out of nowhere.

Aether engulfs you in a hug, which surprised you. You could feel your cheeks burning from the physical contact. His arm wraps around your shoulder while the other strokes your hair, calming you.

"I won't let that happen to you, Paimon and me. I won't let him hurt us, I will promise you that I will protect you both from any danger. I don't want to lose another friend..." he says and the last sentence sounds more like a whisper to you but you understand him.

You also promised to yourself that you will protect paimon and him. Because you love them.

----

"Well traveller, you're quite stronger than I thought"

"Stay away from him!"

You yelled at the harbinger, keeping yourself from falling as you struggled to stand up. Paimon tried her best to keep Aether awake while you were guarding them, ready to attack him anytime.

Childe let out a loud laugh, as if he was mocking you and your companion. Shaking his head, he came closer to you.

"You know what, you're lucky that you didn't fall for my tricks" he chuckles. You were getting antsy everytime he take a step closer to you, "no one is fool enough to fall for a harbinger, Tartaglia" you sneered.

He was about to attack you with his hydro sword but you managed to dodged it with your power and turning it into an ice. You both fight for a while and fortunately, Aether came to help you.

After hours of fighting, that's what you think, you feel drained out. Slumping on the floor, you take a glance at Aether he was panting hard, Paimon at his side to support him. And Childe, he looks better than both you and Aether combined but he's still in a good shape.

As you were trying to stand up, you saw a glimpse of a woman at the corner of your eye. You widen your eyes and tried to push Aether away as you saw the woman was about to attack him with her sharp ice.

Signora.

You made a wall of ice to protect Aether and Paimon from her attacks. However, you didn't do it for you. You didn't protect yourself and got hit by the ice. The ice wall from you melts, so does Aether's world when he saw you, bleeding from your own element.

Childe was as shocked too, he thought you were a genuine person, he really do. Is this what it feels when you know someone personally got hurt? He can't imagine what Aether feels now.

You fell, you felt dizzy as you hit your head on the solid ground.

"Y/n!" Aether and Paimon yelled your name, but why do they sound like they're miles away?

"Y/n! Keep your eyes open! Don't you very dare to close your eyes!" Your friend screamed. Paimon is holding your hand while sobbing on you. "Y/n you can't leave us! Paimon still want to have fun with you!"

All you can do is cry. You don't want to leave them. You still haven't find your way back home, you can't. But you were losing so much blood and all you could do is remembering your moments with your friends.

Aether and Paimon.

Aether holds you on his lap, you could feel his tears falling on your cheek. He cups your cheek as he stares into your (e/c) orbs. To him, it resembles the stars on the night sky. He wish he could look at them like this before.

Not when you're dying.

He put his forehead on yours as he keeps repeating "please don't leave" to you. You promised him that you will protect him, but not stay with him. Did you regret it? Yes. You wish you could stay but you knew at the end, both of you will leave eventually.

But you didn't expect that you would leave them like this.

With all your might, you hover your hand over his that was on your cheek, rubbing it softly. "Promise me, we will meet someday, wether it be in our next life or in different universe, promise me we will meet again" you said, voice getting hoarse and staring to his golden eyes. You want to remember his eyes, his nose, his lips, his everything.

"Paimon doesn't want you to leave!" your little friend cried, you let out a loud sob as you pull her to your chest, soaking your bloody shirt with her tears. You three tried to cherish your last moment together, even though it was a tragic one, like now.

Aether tighten his hold on you, Paimon cries harder when she saw the colour of your vision starting to fade, knowing you couldn't make it.

"Paimon loves you, y/n", all you can do is cry, before your last breathe you hear Aether says "I promise you, we will meet again.. I love you"

Your vision faded, you fall into a deep sleep and everything turns dark.

----

"She's awake!"

"Call the doctor!"

You slowly opened your eyes, the bright light hurting your eyes, still adjusting to the surrounding. You could feel your tears were falling. Why did you cry? Then it hit you.

You were in the hospital.

You remember what happened, was that all just a dream? It feels real, way too real for your liking.

"Thank god, you're finally awake!" your mom sobs. Wait, your mom is here? You're finally back? You were supposed to be happy but why did you feel sad?

"H-how long did I... Sleep?" you asked, voice raspy as your throat lacks of hydration. Your mom gave you a glass of water and you gladly drink it, your throat still hurt.

"2 months now, you got hit by a car and the guy felt bad. He even insisted to pay for your bills", your mom says as she hold your hand. It's been a few minutes but you missed them. Aether and your little friend Paimon.

"Oh.." that's all you can say. You really don't know what to respond. You were happy that you're finally awake but you also missed people you met in Teyvat. Are they real or just your imagination?

"I forgot to tell you, the person who pays for your hospital bill will visit you. He always visits you when me and your dad is busy with work", you nodded your head, didn't have the energy to reply your mom back.

Suddenly, the door opens, revealing a tall man. You face him, only to widen your eyes as you were shocked to see the person in your dream.

"Childe?"

----

It's been a month since you got discharged from the hospital and been recovering well. You still struggle to walk on your own though, but nothing serious. Ever since you met childe, you both got along very well, not like the one in your dream.

"So... What I dreamed of during my coma was real?" You asked him, walking through the flowery path as the cherry blossom falls on the ground beside him arms clinging to his.

"Yeah. In fact, I'm still the same Childe in your dream!"

"Yeah as you wish. The only same thing is you keep paying things for me.. And being annoying"

You remarked. He only laughs and told you the reason why he keeps doing that is that it's the only kind action he could do, even now. But in reality, he felt guilty. He

"By the way, I want you to meet an old friend of mine. You won't mind right?"

"What's the point of asking me if you're going to introduce your friend to me now?"

"Geez woman, you're still the same"

you could only laugh at him. To you, he's a good friend but no one could replace Aether. If you met Childe, there's a possibility of you to meet Aether and Paimon right?

"Oi blondie! We're here!" Childe yelled, getting you out from your deep thoughts. You look up only to meet a pair of golden eyes that you've missed so much.

It feels like the time has stopped. He walked towards you and slowly, engulfed you in a hug. You were stunned, you meet him. You both found each other. You hugged him back, tightly. You let out tears of joy, he was relieved he found you that he also cried.

"You didn't forget me don't you?" You hear a feminine voice behind Aether, only to find Paimon crossing her arms, just like when you meet her for the first time. But what amazes you that she's in a different form. She looks... Like you. A woman.

Your eyes got teary again and went straight to her, giving her a big hug which she reciprocated. "I miss you so much Paimon" you burried your head into her neck. Paimon was happy she could meet her.

Childe and Aether could only look both of you with adoration. Aether cleared his throat, without looking at the man beside him, eyes still on you. "Thank you, if it wasn't for you, we wouldn't find her"

The red haired man could only smile, "it's no problem. I couldn't face anyone after what happened in Teyvat. Think of this as my way to apologize". Aether couldn't answer, he only nodded his head to let him know he's listening.

You went to him only get a hug from you. You missed him so much. And you noticed Aether doesn't have his long braided hair anymore, which saddens you because you always play and braid his hair.

"I noticed that you finally got rid of your annoyingly long hair", you teased him. You hear him chuckled as he tightened his grip around you. "Can't let the annoyingly long hair distract people sweetie. People found it weird here"

"But I like it though..." you blushed at the pet name he gave you. You both just couldn't let go of each other now. He strokes your hair, enjoying each others presence. "I'm so glad that I found you", "me too, I'm glad you're here".

The other two friend only watched you two reunited again, hugging each other and won't let each other go because you missed each other so much that you both are afraid one of you vanished anytime. But it's real.

"Childe can we get some sticky honey roast?"

"Good grief, paimon.."

when it's the right person but it's the wrong time

childe, diluc, kazuha and xiao x gn!reader

hcs, sfw, angst, modern!au, cw: breakups, idk no comfort i think, 866 words

reblog pls unless u wanna lose ur 50/50 bc im jinxing u

note: love life goes brrr ig 😧 kazuha is. is based from true events and very long bc i have favoritism. always rmb that some men r just shit tho 💞 diluc probs doesnt make sense but i hate writing for him in a way so idm. not proofread, dont mind any stupid errors

childe ;

it was a healthy relationship, sadly the timing for it wasn't exactly the best. you don't know how it happened, but things weren't working out for the both of you. it went wrong in many ways to the point you wonder how you get into a relationship. it wasn't a toxic relationship though, it's more like you both lost interest in one another and you both noticed it but went in denial. that's what caused you to have numerous arguments with childe, always yelling at each other when you call and in the end you'll just hang him up out of frustration with your feelings. you had second thoughts - had you truly loved him from the start? had he truly loved you from the start? you don't know at this point. all you know is that with one final call, you both ended things there and stopped communicating. it all went back to that one snowy night where you were still strangers to each other.

diluc ;

diluc was busy. he had always been, even before you met him he was already busy with many things. but he always made time for you, until lately he didn't. diluc always treated you right and you did the same for him, it's best to say that you two were in a very healthy relationship. so how could things just go wrong? maybe it's because you felt abandoned by him, or maybe it's because you were overthinking if diluc still held feelings for you. you refused to believe that you and diluc's relationship would go downhill. you two always fixed your problems with one another in the end - how is this situation any different from the past ones?

xiao ;

you were the one he trusted the most. the way you were always there for him always made him happy. but in this relationship, xiao was the problem. he didn't know how it all started but lately he felt like he wasn't deserving of you. hell, he even thought that you were just pitying him - but he knows you wouldn't be like that. how can your comforting words be an act of pity? so he believes that he himself is the problem. he's been dazing out recently, always seeming like he's in deep thought and when you ask him about it he'll say it's nothing. "liar." a voice in his head said. it took you a while to process what his words were on the day he finally decided to break up with you. you reached out to him, hand trying to grasp his but he pulled away, avoiding your gaze as you looked at him in hurt. you offered that you'll do better to understand him - to do better at loving him but he denied all of it. he wanted to have a break, to fix himself, to do better for you so he too can give back the love you give him. but in the end, you two really weren't meant to be in this time.

kazuha ;

you thought your feelings went platonic for him. but in truth you just fell out of love. kazuha did nothing wrong, you were the problem. he treated you well - always was by your side when you needed him and always would try his best to cheer you up if you're feeling down. you couldn't believe the fact that you fell out of love for him. so you insisted that your feelings just went platonic - you just can't accept how you fell out of love. kazuha noticed everything, how you've been acting distant lately, how you were getting a bit dry, everything was noticed by him when you didn't even realize it yourself.

and so you broke up, telling him how your feelings went platonic for him. "liar." you called yourself. but within at least 2 weeks later, you decided to say hi to him. you were nervous when you pressed send to a message that just said "hi" in your conversation with him. he was doing well thankfully, but you were a wreck. you hated how kazuha could still read you like a book, he asked if you were alright and you made him guess. and his guess was still accurate as ever - no, you weren't okay. you were a mess. 

as if nothing happened between you, he offered for you to rant at him like how he used to, which made you feel bad. how could you fall out of love for such a nice guy? he deserves better than this but he probably doesn't know it. you decided to just go off about work, saying how you were given too much work to do when it recently just started. you didn't know what he would say, but it just hurts even more when he offered to help you with it.

why, why was he still the same? did the past 2 weeks already make him get over what happened between you? even if you tried to fix things with him, you doubt it'll be the same. maybe, you two just really didn't work out for this time. and maybe you two were happier if things just didn't go wrong.

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It was over from the start

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Characters: Ayato, Ayaka & Thoma

Including: Angst

Warnings: Blood, Violence, Death (can be triggering)

Summary: They never came back, it was already too late.

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Words count: 4.1k

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How sweet was it to fall in love with the head of the Kamisato Clan, the dear older brother of your friend, Ayaka. You knew her for years, since she was a child while you were a bit older, since she couldn't see her brother most of the time, she would hang out with you. She was someone dear to you, that you would protect for anything and anyone, she was your first friend, and you were cherishing her.

After some years, her older brother grew curious about who Ayaka was seeing whenever she was going out, and that's how you met him. You spend hours talking while drinking tea, Ayato listening closely to everything you were saying while you share memories you had with the younger sister, from years ago to now, games you played, books you read together, Ayato could see how fond you were of his sister.

That's when he decided to trust you completely with her, not wanting to take away one of the people that were making his dearest little sister happy. You got the approval of coming to the Kamisato Estate whenever you wanted, granting you the honour of spending as much time as you wanted here. And slowly but surely, you grew closer to Ayato, and Thoma. Which was making Ayaka more than happy.

Everyone grew used to seeing you everywhere Ayaka went, and it wasn't rare for Thoma to join you. Especially since you had one particular thing in common, which is the both of you coming from Mondstadt, it made you become closer than ever. Thoma was someone you trusted greatly, and you would go see him when you ended up missing your nation. Sometimes, in the middle of the day, he would come to see you and share some memories he had there, with his friends, and you could hear how much he was missing it too.

Despite both loving Inazuma so much, you were longing to go back to Mondstadt. But for now, you would push this need aside, because for you, Ayaka mattered more, and for Thoma, his Lord mattered more too. At least, it was the official reason, because on one drinking night, with you two sitting on a bench, watching people passing by, you admitted something. How badly you fell in love with Ayato after some months, and then, Thoma admitted that he had feelings for the younger sister.

You knew you couldn't do anything about this, you grew up and lived in a different world, position, and your future would never be as bright as theirs. You agreed to never talk about it again, and time continued to fly as if nothing happened, the secret will only stay between the two of you. Until on another night, you voiced out your love for the head of the clan by accident, and he replies positively. This changed everything.

You learned soon after, that Thoma admitted to Ayato what he was feeling, and surprisingly, he agreed for him to court his sister, on the condition that he needed for them to both hit their 18 years old first. Since they were both born the same year, one in January, and the other in September, he would have to wait 9 more months, but he was willing to do that.

Everything was going well, for the better, Thoma hit his 18th birthday, and you all celebrated together, and then, 9 months later, it was Ayaka's turn. Nothing changed much between all of you, except for your closeness with Ayato, and Thoma being subtly sweeter and more attentive with Ayaka.

You were sure that the joy and happiness would last long, or so you thought until the news came in, Ayato was going to marry a woman for political reasons and someone from another clan proposed to Ayaka. You weren't worried at first, you knew he liked you back, and you were closer than ever. But then, one day, while leaving your house, you could hear everyone talking, saying how happy they were that Kamisato Ayato accepted the marriage with this woman, that was perfect in their eyes for someone like him.

The news crushed you, your heart breaking into pieces, but you didn't dare to say anything, knowing it wasn't your place to. You decided to just slowly put distance between yourself and the head of the Kamisato clan, reassuring Ayaka that it will never impact your friendship with her. It pained you to see him talk with someone else, forgetting you, but you focused on what was important. After all, you weren't living in the same world, it would have never worked out.

Ayato talked to you once after this, but instead of giving you a reason, he just told you it was for the best. Since then, you never talked with him again, except if it was related to Ayaka. You could see him try to call out for you, but this woman was showing up at the same time every time, and he couldn't do anything but watch you walk away. You didn't hate this woman, she was just doing what her clan asked her to, creating a link with another clan, and so, you treated her as greatly as any other guest.

Soon after, the other news hit you, Ayaka accepted the engagement with this man. The same night, Thoma came to you, crying in your arms, whimpering and stuttering words out with difficulty. It was unbearable for him, after months of trying to win her heart, Ayaka just accepted someone that she knew nothing about, as if he never existed in the first place or never mattered in her life. You comforted him the best you could, understanding the pain he was going through more than anyone else. This night, none of you slept, too heartbroken to even think about trying to rest.

The next day, you both agreed to stay away from the one person breaking your heart, which means also seeing the other less, but it was for your own good. Ayaka was confused about why Thoma hasn't come to talk to her today, but you didn't reply, knowing there was no good answer to her question.

Your happiness and joy fell drastically, the pain overtaking any good emotions left in your heart, you couldn't bear to see his face anymore or hear his voice. You were sleeping less, your mind filled with bad thoughts, your chest hurting as your heart was squeezed painfully, and you felt awfully bad. The simple act of going there, and spending your hours in between these walls, remembering everything you did with him, was adding to your suffering, breaking the rest of the mental strength you had.

You couldn't imagine the pain Thoma was going through, as he knew Ayaka for years, living here since he was a teenager. And on one of your nights, the one when you would just rant to Thoma, and he would do the same with you, he let out a sentence you couldn't forget.

“I want to go back to Mondstadt.”

You knew Mondstadt was suffering from a war against monsters right now, and it was one of the worst periods to go back here, but was it really worse than staying in Inazuma? The thought couldn't leave your mind, you wanted to stay here with Ayaka, but at the same time, you knew it would only make you suffer more. You kept your feelings in, and decided to push them aside until you had to face them for real.

Days passed again, and your state was only getting worse, Ayaka could see it, and she tried everything to make you feel better, also bringing you to your favourite places. But it was only making you feel worse, as in every place she was bringing you to, you had memories of Ayato there, and it was making you feel sick. You weren't sleeping correctly anymore, eyebags appearing, and you grew colder. Your joyful personality has disappeared as everything was too much for you right now, these feelings you had were making you die inside.

Thoma was watching from afar, worried and sad for you, which would catch the attention of Ayato, that also grew worried. He didn't know what was happening to you, but it was driving him crazy to not be able to just ask you, as if something was pulling him back before he could step forward. How stupid of him to not see he was the one inflicting you this much pain, unknowingly making you agonize in this place, trapped between these walls. He thought your love for him wasn't serious, how wrong was he. If only he knew.

The day ended, and without knowing it, you missed Ayato waiting for you on the other side of the Estate, himself not knowing you weren't walking in front of his office anymore, to avoid seeing him. As you were leaving for the day, closing the door behind you when you noticed this woman waiting for you, looking a bit embarrassed. She dragged you gently away, asking you if you had any idea of a gift she could give to Ayato, since you were closer to him and knew him better. It was the final straw. You felt your heart break and being crushed under her feet.

You replied to her softly, giving her the best idea you had, and you watch with gentle eyes as she brightens up. She thanks you over and over again, before bowing and walking away happily, not knowing that you gave her the gift you were planning to offer Ayato for his birthday. But you knew you will never give it to him anyway, despite knowing you talk about it with him before, he surely had forgotten by now, so it wasn't important. You took your decision.

The same night, Thoma was waiting for you at your house, and he confessed that he was thinking about leaving soon, only comforting you in your decision. He looked at you with wide eyes when you announced that you were leaving the next day, you had left a letter of resignation under Ayaka's office door, and you would take the first ship leaving from the port the next morning. Your bags were packed, nothing was holding you back now. You were suffering too much here, everywhere you were going, memories were swarming you, memories of you and Ayato, crushing your heart and making you suffocate.

Thoma was sharing your feelings, suffering as much as you if not more, and without a second thought, he decided to come with you. The only reason he was holding up, was because you were here, if you leave him now, he would be completely destroyed. And that's how you helped him pack his bags, bringing them to your house and sleeping here for the night.

The next day, when the sun came up, you were admiring the sunrise from Inazuma one last time. Knowing you weren't coming back.

You went to the port, greeting the crew as they helped you carry your bags and then, the ship was leaving. And you watch as the land was becoming thinner and thinner until you couldn't see it anymore. Meanwhile, Ayaka has woken up, and found your letter, reading it with tears in her eyes before running to her older brother. And as he read, his heart stopped, an unknown feeling spreading through his body as he stared into the void, not knowing what to do. When Ayaka reached your house, alone, you had already left and there were no traces of Thoma left.

You observed the clear blue sky, admiring the few clouds you could see as you relax outside, Thoma sitting calmly beside you with a small smile, watching as you seemed much happier than before. You enjoyed the sounds of the wave hitting the ship, the fresh air of the sea and the calm, for the first time in weeks, you were feeling at peace. The tension and responsibility weighing your shoulders evaporating with the salty water, all the pain going away slowly, as you get away from Inazuma. Away from him and those unwanted memories.

You were so thankful to Kazuha, your long-time friend, that managed to convince Beidou to take you with them on the ship. He understood how much he was suffering, and the physical state you were in was only proving how hard it has been for you recently. He almost cursed out loud when he heard about what happened, and he couldn't help but feel furious about how Ayato and Ayaka just dismissed your feelings, as if it wasn't important in the first place.

The ship should bring you to Liyue and then, you had to find a way to reach Mondstadt, even with the war going on, but you reassured Kazuha that everything would be fine, and he had no reason to worry. And without another word, he just smiled at you, holding out his hands to you before motioning to Thoma to follow you, bringing you to a higher place on the ship, where nobody could go except the captain and him, so you could enjoy your travel as much as it was possible.

Soon enough, you saw the land, not far away from you, and a warm feeling was spreading through your heart into the rest of your body. And for the first time in three days, you saw the brightest smile on Thoma's face as he held onto your shoulder, watching excitedly as you grew closer to the other nation.

And finally, after three days, from being on Beidou's ship to reaching Liyue and then asking merchants to bring you to Mondstadt, you were there. You were both exhausted, but the thought of finally being away from what was causing you so much pain was just, so refreshing. The fresh air, all the tension leaving your body as you recognize your home, the city you grew up into, everything was perfect. And the smile on your face was so natural and true, filled with honesty and hope. You were finally here, the city of freedom.

On your way there, you met with Diluc, his red flaming hair catching your attention immediately, and you feel the emotions taking over. You couldn't help but run forward and hug him, unknowingly bringing him to tears as he was so sure he would never see you again. He was the one that helped you to reach Inazuma after all, ignoring his feelings for you as he just wanted you to be happy. He was also so relieved to see Thoma with you, and he offered to let you stay the night.

This night ended up being three days, talking and sharing what happened during you weren't here, also telling you how the war was going before moving back to lighter subjects. As you talked, you started to regain memories you never knew existed, and it was so sweet to remember how happy you were to live here, when you were playing with Diluc and Kaeya or purposely annoying the merchants in the city. Everything felt so nostalgic, and you were feeling better than ever, your own happiness affecting Thoma, that couldn't help but watch you go back to your old self with gentle eyes.

Soon enough, you told your old friend that you were going to go to the city for the day, and he offered to bring you there, afraid that the monsters could attack you. And he was right because on the way, near the walls, a group of monsters jumped on you, thankfully you defeated them easily but turns out they were attacking the city and the knights were struggling to protect it. Without a second thought, Diluc grabbed his claymore and jumped into the fight, with a nod, you and Thoma joined him.

And after hours of intense fighting, and some cuts inflicted on your bodies, you managed to defeat them and make the rest give up. You looked over to Diluc, worried as his palms were burned by his vision, and you run to the nearest shop to buy something to heal him. By the time you were all more or less okay, it was too late to do anything else for the day, and Thoma rented a room instead of going back to the Dawn Winery Manor.

One day became a week, and then became two, and you ended up staying more than you thought in the city. As you agreed to leave the next day in the afternoon to see Diluc again, sadly, an attack ruined your plan. You woke up to loud noises and screams, the monsters invaded the city and were destroying everything along with attacking the citizens. You watched in shock from your window how a Mitachurls send a man flying into the wall, blood splashing everywhere.

Screams were resonating through the city, chilling you to the bone as you watch in horror everything getting reduced to flesh and broken pieces. Monsters were running into the city, bursting doors open, attacking anything that was moving, and the knights were struggling to protect the population. Thoma shoots up, grabbing his polearm ready to fight, but you weren't so sure about it being a good idea. Yes, you knew how to fight, but the knights were trained for this but were already struggling, your guts were telling you to not go in here.

But at the same time, you couldn't let Thoma jump into this battle alone, and when you hear him open the door and run down, you didn't have the time to think. You grabbed your weapon and attacked the first hillichurl you could find.

Everything was going well, they weren't strong enough to put you in difficulty, that was until two Mitachurls showed up. Not only one had a shield protecting him from your attacks, but the second had an enormous axe, and it was almost if not as big as you. You struggled to dodge every hit, the monster in front of you forcing you to back up into a wall, leaving you no opening to escape. And before you knew it, your back hit the brick wall harshly, and the Mitachurl was raising his axe over his head.

You managed to dodge the first attack, stepping to the side as the axe grazed your left shoulder, still creating a deep cut into your skin that was bleeding profusely. But as the second one was coming, you heard a scream, you turned your head on reflex to see Thoma surrounded by abyss mages, he was bleeding, and his left arm was frozen. Before you could move or process what you were seeing, his eyes meet yours, panic reflecting through his expression, terror taking over. And then he was burned in front of you, his screams echoing into your ears, your name dying under the pained cries. And it went silent, everything was unmoving around you as if the world stopped for almost a second.

Sadly it didn't last, and only an instant later, you heard something cutting through the air. The axe was falling down on you, breaking your bones, cutting through your skin and flesh, organs spilling out of the gaping cut. And then, it was over. You were dead on the spot, unable to hear Diluc screaming your name in desperation, witnessing your body cut in half and falling to the ground in a disgusting wet sound.

He killed them, unable to contain his rage, burning through his body, burning his hands as he kills everything he could see. But deep down, he knew that whatever he was doing now, he couldn't bring you back, he couldn't bring Thoma back. He would protect the rest of the population, doing his best to forget the scene he saw just an instant before, even if he knew he won't be able to sleep anymore after this. Your empty eyes and face covered in blood would haunt him forever. How cruel was it to come back, spend days with him, bring back memories and then die in front of him this way?

The battle ended only some hours after, many were dead, innocent people or knights, many lost loved ones and the population was devastated. Diluc left without a word, only stopping on your corpse to close your eyes before disappearing. With an unknown reason for most, he never came out of the Dawn Winery Manor again, refusing to go out and see anyone, too broken by the view of his loved ones dying again. It was only a week after that Ayaka reached Mondstadt, without his brother as he was celebrating his marriage, leaving her alone to discover the destroyed and bloody city. Despite searching everywhere, she couldn't find you or Thoma, she was getting desperate, almost crying in the middle of the street until someone came to help her. When she told the unknown person whom she was searching for, they became silent and simply led her to a calm area.

In front of her, was standing a tombstone, with thousands of names written on it. She was confused until she reached the middle of it, graved inside the granite, along with the names of the knights and the Grand Master of the Knights of Favonius, were yours and Thoma's names. Ayaka froze on the spot, hands shaking as she raised her fingers, touching the tombstone to make sure she wasn't hallucinating, it was really your two names here. You were dead. You weren't coming back to Inazuma, never.

She stood there, tears sliding down her cheeks as she couldn't let any words out. She needed someone to comfort her, she needed you or Thoma, she needed her brother, but none of you was here. She never had the time to say goodbye, the last memory she had with you was your broken and cold self, the tired and hurt Thoma. Without a word, she left the city after placing your and Thoma's favourite flowers in front of the tombstone.

On the way back, Ayaka didn't exchange any words, and even if she wanted to, each syllable she tried to murmur out was destroying her throat, as if it was burning from the inside. When she came back to Inazuma, she didn't speak a word to Beidou or Kazuha, unable to announce the news. She simply reached the Kamisato Estate, and broke off her engagement, throwing the ring away as she sits in the corner of the room, holding the letter you left against her chest, crying.

Ayato wasn't here, and she was all alone to deal with her pain. The next day, she sent one of the servants to deliver a letter announcing the terrible news to the people you knew, omitting the cause of the death. She only said that you died as a hero, saving the citizens of Mondstadt during the war. She sent a similar letter to Ayato, that was still celebrating his engagement at this time, telling everything that she knew, from the reason why you were being so down, to why you decided to leave Inazuma, to finally announce your death, insisting on how painful your death was.

In another letter, that she sent a day after, she told him everything she was feeling, from the pain to regrets and how much she hated herself for not doing anything before everything went down. The news shocked the head of the Kamisato Clan to the point he left during the celebration, running back to his younger sister in hope she would tell him it was a joke.

Unfortunately, the journey back took an entire day, and when he reached the Kamisato Estate, it was already too late. The only thing he found, was the corpse of his dearest sister, her royal blue kimono was now completely red, and in her hand, was resting your letter along with a picture of the four of you together.

Ayato was all alone now, his wife will never be able to compensate for the void he had in his heart, if he still had a heart. Everything was cold and grey around him, he lost his sister, he lost his most trusted servant that he considered a close friend, and he lost the one he truly loved. If only he didn't put his political marriage before anything else, or at least explained why he did this. But he did not, and he lost everything he was living for. Is the tragedy really over, or?

One thing is certain.

They never came back, it was already too late.