The Night We Met

xiaoven date but with zhongli as their chaperone

bonus

Don't Take My Sunshine Away Submission

There are a lot of trigger warnings but I can't spoil it in the end, uh blood, no kinky shit tho

In this fic, you are Chile's ex-bed partner.

You are my sunshine

You smile as your son is waving at you happily. He was but a baby who was waving their fist. You lend out a finger and he grasp it. He wasn't supposed to be born, but you still did despite the words, threats, sarcastic remarks that went to your way.

My only sunshine

You and Childe were never meant to be. He was a harbinger, you were a commoner. He doesn't love you, who was not at the same level as him. You can only warm his bed. Even you knew about it but you still fell in love with him. You knew that this will be the death of you but you didn't care. You'll love him as long as you want, you didn't care even if he didn't love you back.

You make me happy when skies are gray

You once thought of aborting the child once. But everytime you look down, you will unconsciously touch hour stomach while thinking of the child.

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

You will always have a smile on your face everytime you look at him. Even though you don't know how to take care of one, you tired your best. He was after all, your sunshine.

Please don't take my sunshine away

But you son only managed to live for 3 months before he got taken away from you. You still remembered how, you still remembered Childe's eyes when he looks at you. They were but cold eyes that were staring at you as if you were a dead person. It was nothing like of the past. Even though he didn't look at you with adoration, he still has a bright light.

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping

You have a smile on your face, so beautiful. The reason why a commoner like you got noticed was also because of your beauty. A beautiful woman who feels beauty from within, from the love you give to your ideas and the creative ways you express your soul. You who are the one who wraps your arms around the soul of the world, of all who love you and those who need to love.

I dreamed I held you as I lay sleeping

In your sleep, you unconsciously cradled your pillow, dreaming of your child who is away from you, who's life and death is unknown.

But when I woke, dear, I was mistaken

You awoke from your dreams, expecting to see your child. But you didn't saw him, you looked around the room until you realized.

So I hung my head and I cried

You hung your head and cried. You pour all your anger, bitterness, hatred, all of your emotions that bottled up in the past months. You did something you know the rational you wouldn't. You went to the kitchen, grabbed a knife and slit your left wrist deep. You didn't care, you just went to bed and went to sleep.

But you didn't know was that, Childe have to do that because he was a harbinger. He can't love you, harbingers' aren't allowed to have weaknesses. He loves you as much as you love him. He didn't kill your child, he brought him to the Tsaritsa in hopes to ask permission for his son to live. The Tsaritsa, even though has closed her heart, can see on how Childe loves the child. She gave him the permission to take care of his child. He was happy, the first thing he did was sail back to Liyue to find you. He saw your home and immediately smelled blood. He forced himself in and went to where the blood is, then he saw your figure, with a smile on your face, as blood stopped pouring out of your wrist. He was devastated. He... He didn't mean it to be like this! He just wanted to protect you. He cried. As he saw your figure with pale white skin, so pale that it meant that you are dead. He hold the of yours child, into his chest as tears runned down on his face. He promise you that he'll take care of the child, promise that he will never leave the child. Promised... But no matter what he would do, you won't ever come back. His child cried, so he went outside and called his men to take care of you. He look down and saw how the child has the same face, hair as you but his eyes are the same as him. He smiled, since he promised, he will accomplish it.

- 🥗 anon

Does this make sense? I also don't know. I just wanted some angst since I heard the song, I was thinking of Xiao as the person who lost someone but then I remembered Childe so... I didn't edit this so there might have been some mistake. As for the spicy Xiao, I can't make it without being distracted so... I'll just do it in the future.

Goodness I thought this was gonna be kinky but ended being nothing but paaaaain, sorry if I added a readmore, had to hide the ending because of possible suicide triggers

* / MISBEHAVING

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( sukuna x f!reader / gojo x f!reader )

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summary: after getting kicked to the curb by gojo satoru, you want to give him a taste of his own medicine. the answer? ryomen sukuna. but you get more than you bargained for when you get entangled in both family’s messes.

content warnings: angst + fluff + smut (MDNI), modern au, fake dating, toxic relationships (and families), mentions of abuse/suicide/death, everyone in this story is petty in their own way (and i mean very petty), sukuna is mostly a dick (so is gojo), toji is a bad father, everyone here is bad at feelings (sorry!), manipulating/gaslighting, alcohol/cigarettes will be commonly mentioned & included, certain degree of elitism, beware my horrible planning skills + more to be revealed as the chapters go along.

status: ongoing! (click here if you want to read on ao3)

-> flip the pages:

01. prologue: the calm before the storm

02. chapter one: the enemy of my enemy is my (boy)friend

03. chapter two: barking up the wrong zenin tree

04. chapter three: keeping up (fake) appearances

05. chapter four: the monument to all your sins

06. chapter five: two sides to the same coin

07. chapter six: and that’s where love finds you, in the tragedies

08. chapter seven: where there’s smoke, there’s fire (and disaster)

09. chapter eight: two can keep a secret

10. chapter nine: the devil is in the details

11. chapter ten: bound

12. chapter eleven: be careful what you wish for

13. chapter twelve: there are no good people here

++ more to be updated!

+ notes: please remember—not everything is accurate to real-life situations & all things that happen here are fictional. sukuna doesn’t have tattoos on his face here, just his body and they’re not the same as the manga/anime. titles for unreleased chapters might change because i’m indecisive. related asks are under the tag #series: misbehaving

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I want to live by myself when I move out of my parent's place but I'm really afraid of money problems? I'm afraid that the only place I can afford will be in the ghetto and it'll all be torn apart and I'll only be allowed to eat one granola bar a week. I'm really stressing out about this. I don't know anything about after school life. I don't know anything about paying bills or how to buy an apartment and it's really scaring me. is there anything you know that can help me?

HI darling,

I’ve actually got a super wonderful masterpost for you to check out:

Home

what the hell is a mortgage?

first apartment essentials checklist

how to care for cacti and succulents

the care and keeping of plants

Getting an apartment

Money

earn rewards by taking polls

how to coupon

what to do when you can’t pay your bills

see if you’re paying too much for your cell phone bill

how to save money

How to Balance a Check Book

How to do Your Own Taxes

Health

how to take care of yourself when you’re sick

things to bring to a doctor’s appointment

how to get free therapy

what to expect from your first gynecologist appointment

how to make a doctor’s appointment

how to pick a health insurance plan

how to avoid a hangover

a list of stress relievers

how to remove a splinter

Emergency

what to do if you get pulled over by a cop

a list of hotlines in a crisis

things to keep in your car in case of an emergency

how to do the heimlich maneuver

Job

time management

create a resume

find the right career

how to pick a major

how to avoid a hangover

how to interview for a job

how to stop procrastinating

How to write cover letters

Travel

ULTIMATE PACKING LIST

Traveling for Cheap

Travel Accessories

The Best Way to Pack a Suitcase

How To Read A Map

How to Apply For A Passport

How to Make A Travel Budget

Better You

read the news

leave your childhood traumas behind

how to quit smoking

how to knit

how to stop biting your nails

how to stop procrastinating

how to stop skipping breakfast

how to stop micromanaging

how to stop avoiding asking for help

how to stop swearing constantly

how to stop being a pushover

learn another language

how to improve your self-esteem

how to sew

learn how to embroider

how to love yourself

100 tips for life

Apartments/Houses/Moving

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 1: Are You Sure? (The Responsible One)

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 2: Finding the Damn Apartment (The Responsible One)

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 3: Questions to Ask about the Damn Apartment (The Responsible One)

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 4: Packing and Moving All of Your Shit (The Responsible One)

How to Protect Your Home Against Break-Ins (The Responsible One)

Education

How to Find a Fucking College (The Sudden Adult)

How to Find Some Fucking Money for College (The Sudden Adult)

What to Do When You Can’t Afford Your #1 Post-Secondary School (The Sudden Adult)

Stop Shitting on Community College Kids (Why Community College is Fucking Awesome) (The Responsible One)

How to Ask for a Recommendation Letter (The Responsible One)

How to Choose a College Major (The Sudden Adult)

Finances

How to Write a Goddamn Check (The Responsible One)

How to Convince Credit Companies You’re Not a Worthless Bag of Shit (The Responsible One)

Debit vs Credit (The Responsible One)

What to Do if Your Wallet is Stolen/Lost (The Sudden Adult)

Budgeting 101 (The Responsible One)

Important Tax Links to Know (The Responsible One)

How to Choose a Bank Without Screwing Yourself (The Responsible One)

Job Hunting

How to Write a Resume Like a Boss (The Responsible One)

How to Write a Cover Letter Someone Will Actually Read (The Responsible One)

How to Handle a Phone Interview without Fucking Up (The Responsible One)

10 Sites to Start Your Job Search (The Responsible One)

Life Skills

Staying in Touch with Friends/Family (The Sudden Adult)

Bar Etiquette (The Sudden Adult)

What to Do After a Car Accident (The Sudden Adult)

Grow Up and Buy Your Own Groceries (The Responsible One)

How to Survive Plane Trips (The Sudden Adult)

How to Make a List of Goals (The Responsible One)

How to Stop Whining and Make a Damn Appointment (The Responsible One)

Miscellaneous

What to Expect from the Hell that is Jury Duty (The Responsible One)

Relationships

Marriage: What the Fuck Does It Mean and How the Hell Do I Know When I’m Ready? (Guest post - The Northwest Adult)

How Fucked Are You for Moving In with Your Significant Other: An Interview with an Actual Real-Life Couple Living Together™ (mintypineapple  and catastrofries)

Travel & Vehicles

How to Winterize Your Piece of Shit Vehicle (The Responsible One)

How to Make Public Transportation Your Bitch (The Responsible One)

Other Blog Features

Apps for Asshats

Harsh Truths & Bitter Reminders

Asks I’ll Probably Need to Refer People to Later

Apartments (or Life Skills) - How Not to Live in Filth (The Sudden Adult)

Finances - Tax Basics (The Responsible One)

Important Documents - How to Get a Copy of Your Birth Certificate (The Responsible One)

Important Documents - How to Get a Replacement ID (The Responsible One)

Health - How to Deal with a Chemical Burn (The Responsible One)

Job Hunting - List of Jobs Based on Social Interaction Levels (The Sudden Adult)

Job Hunting - How to Avoid Falling into a Pit of Despair While Job Hunting (The Responsible One)

Job Hunting - Questions to Ask in an Interview (The Responsible One)

Life Skills - First-Time Flying Tips (The Sudden Adult)

Life Skills - How to Ask a Good Question (The Responsible One)

Life Skills - Reasons to Take a Foreign Language (The Responsible One)

Life Skills - Opening a Bar Tab (The Sudden Adult)

Relationships - Long Distance Relationships: How to Stay in Contact (The Responsible One)

Adult Cheat Sheet:

what to do if your pet gets lost

removing stains from your carpet

how to know if you’re eligible for food stamps

throwing a dinner party

i’m pregnant, now what?

first aid tools to keep in your house

how to keep a clean kitchen

learning how to become independent from your parents

job interview tips

opening your first bank account

what to do if you lose your wallet

tips for cheap furniture

easy ways to cut your spending

selecting the right tires for your car

taking out your first loan

picking out the right credit card

how to get out of parking tickets

how to fix a leaky faucet

get all of your news in one place

getting rid of mice & rats in your house

when to go to the e.r.

buying your first home

how to buy your first stocks

guide to brewing coffee

first apartment essentials checklist

coping with a job you hate

30 books to read before you’re 30

what’s the deal with retirement?

difference between insurances

Once you’ve looked over all those cool links, I have some general advice for you on how you can have some sort of support system going for you:

Reasons to move out of home

You may decide to leave home for many different reasons, including:

wishing to live independently

location difficulties – for example, the need to move closer to university

conflict with your parents

being asked to leave by your parents.

Issues to consider when moving out of home

It’s common to be a little unsure when you make a decision like leaving home. You may choose to move, but find that you face problems you didn’t anticipate, such as:

Unreadiness – you may find you are not quite ready to handle all the responsibilities.

Money worries – bills including rent, utilities like gas and electricity and the cost of groceries may catch you by surprise, especially if you are used to your parents providing for everything. Debt may become an issue.

Flatmate problems – issues such as paying bills on time, sharing housework equally, friends who never pay board, but stay anyway, and lifestyle incompatibilities (such as a non-drug-user flatting with a drug user) may result in hostilities and arguments.

Your parents may be worried

Think about how your parents may be feeling and talk with them if they are worried about you. Most parents want their children to be happy and independent, but they might be concerned about a lot of different things. For example:

They may worry that you are not ready.

They may be sad because they will miss you.

They may think you shouldn’t leave home until you are married or have bought a house.

They may be concerned about the people you have chosen to live with.

Reassure your parents that you will keep in touch and visit regularly. Try to leave on a positive note. Hopefully, they are happy about your plans and support your decision.

Tips for a successful move

Tips include:

Don’t make a rash decision – consider the situation carefully. Are you ready to live independently? Do you make enough money to support yourself? Are you moving out for the right reasons?

Draw up a realistic budget – don’t forget to include ‘hidden’ expenses such as the property’s security deposit or bond (usually four weeks’ rent), connection fees for utilities, and home and contents insurance.

Communicate – avoid misunderstandings, hostilities and arguments by talking openly and respectfully about your concerns with flatmates and parents. Make sure you’re open to their point of view too – getting along is a two-way street.

Keep in touch – talk to your parents about regular home visits: for example, having Sunday night dinner together every week.

Work out acceptable behaviour – if your parents don’t like your flatmate(s), find out why. It is usually the behaviour rather than the person that causes offence (for example, swearing or smoking). Out of respect for your parents, ask your flatmate(s) to be on their best behaviour when your parents visit and do the same for them.

Ask for help – if things are becoming difficult, don’t be too proud to ask your parents for help. They have a lot of life experience.

If your family home does not provide support

Not everyone who leaves home can return home or ask their parents for help in times of trouble. If you have been thrown out of home or left home to escape abuse or conflict, you may be too young or unprepared to cope.

If you are a fostered child, you will have to leave the state-care system when you turn 18, but you may not be ready to make the sudden transition to independence.

If you need support, help is available from a range of community and government organisations. Assistance includes emergency accommodation and food vouchers. If you can’t call your parents or foster parents, call one of the associations below for information, advice and assistance.

Where to get help

Your doctor

Kids Helpline Tel. 1800 55 1800

Lifeline Tel. 13 11 44

Home Ground Services Tel. 1800 048 325

Relationships Australia Tel. 1300 364 277

Centrelink Crisis or Special Help Tel. 13 28 50

Tenants Union of Victoria Tel. (03) 9416 2577

Things to remember

Try to solve any problems before you leave home. Don’t leave because of a fight or other family difficulty if you can possibly avoid it.

Draw up a realistic budget that includes ‘hidden’ expenses, such as bond, connection fees for utilities, and home and contents insurance.

Remember that you can get help from a range of community and government organizations. 

(source)

Keep me updated? xx

I'm surprised by how little love and affection pics there are for Genshin but I just wanted to send you an appreciation post! I hope you're doing well and that your day is going great. Be sure to hydrate and take care of yourself! 

Who sent this I wanna say I love you

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fired / hayakawa aki x reader

word count: 16.9k

tags: 18+, smut, office sex, smoking, drunk flirting, blowjob, fingering, power imbalance, spit kink, teasing & dirty talk, dom aki but he lowkey a switch, suit kink...?

summary: Aki never thought he'd find himself falling for a subordinate, but stranger things happen when you're a devil hunter. At least being the boss has its perks.

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summary: You meant everything to him, and Aki promised to keep you safe, even if it meant dying for you.

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tags: 18+, smut, fluff, fingering, cunnilingus, tender sex, overstimulation, dirty talk, smoking, established relationship, lots and lots of i love you's, soft dom aki

summary: Aki is undeniably, wholeheartedly in love with you, and there's nowhere he tells you he loves you more than right here, in his bed, when you're under him.

arrival in tokyo / hayakawa aki x reader

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summary: Aki has found you insufferable from the moment you were paired up together. It's bad enough that they're forcing him to work with a damn devil, but you happen to be the most disobedient, irritating devil he's ever met. You seem to have quite the attitude, and brats like you ought to be put in their place.

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one / aki, who comes home from work really late and utterly exhausted...

two / hayakawa aki drives you home when it rains...

Okay I'm hiding now

𝐈 𝐒𝐞𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝄞

Genre: fluff, slight angst, slight smut

Characters: Yoshida Hirofumixfem!studentreader

Warning: possessiveness, stalker, death, blood, gore, mature scene, knife, underage drinking

Synopsis: It's a typical student falling in love the most popular student, but nothing is ordinary when she finds the truth.

· · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · ·

The morning breeze outside woke you up, slightly shivery despite wearing a coat that you mother insisted you to wear. She was afraid you'd catch cold and have red nose the whole day would make you look like Rudolph the red nose reindeer.

You shook your head thinking how your sibling would tease for having red nose, it's stupid but he's only young he'd pick on you just as much you tease him whenever his crush was around. You stuffed your hands inside your pocket slightly cursing to the weather it wasn't helping.

You could only wish you could stay inside your warm bed and just sleep, but you didn't you chose to go to school since you knew missing school for the fifth time wasn't a good idea and you were behind your classes, you walked to school with you head down since you were pushing yourself to at least be productive since the past few days you were burnt out.

Especially when you have classmate who ask you to do their essays and other homework, you earn money from doing so but honestly it was taking so much of your time that you end up sleeping late or sleepless nights.

You hid this from your parents, after all they don't want to see their daughter was being treated like this afterall you were invincible to everyone, maybe the teachers don't care if you still don't show up to class today, that made you stop right in front of you school, few minutes before the bell rings you still debated over the fact of leaving or staying.

As you turned around you suddenly bumped into someone chest.

"Oh, I'm so sorry." You rubbed your forehead as you felt his hands on your shoulder, you looked up meeting a black haired boy with piercings on, his eyes met yours before he smiles at you.

Rubbing the back of his neck as he was seemingly flustered.

"Are you okay?" You simply nodded, you were lost for words he was just incredibly good looking he swiftly moves away past you as he walks inside your feet just moves on it's own.

You changed your shoes before heading to your class, you seat behind the class, it was right next to the trash can but somehow it wasn't so bad after all it gives you the view watching the trees sway and the cloudy sky. You mutter 'excuse me' as you make your way back, just as you place your bad down students came to your direction dumping their notes books on your table. You flinched with their slamming carelessly, you knew the drill it means to do their homework.

The girls snickered at your pathetic state, you could do was stare just as the bell rings again your homeroom teacher came in. The class representative stood up as everyone follows. You quickly gather the notebooks away from your desk but one had fallen the other boys looked at you before they roll their eyes.

"You may all sit down." The teacher announces. You were about to reach down for the notebook but suddenly you felt a hand tug your hair harshly, you let out a whimper.

"Hey, you better not mess this up just because you've been gone for awhile this doesn't stop." The teacher's eyes fell on to your direction but she couldn't see clearly what was the ruckus going on at the back.

"Himari-san what's going on over there?" Her voice was stern rather than caring, she quickly retracted her hand as she pat the back of your head little bit harsh, too much damn volleyball her hand was heavy.

"Nothing, I was watching over her head since she was dangerously close to get hit by my desk." She gave her a wide smile, the teacher took a quick glance at you as you took the notebook inside your bag. She quickly averted her eyes away but the girl beside you gave you a death look before showing you her middle finger.

You felt tears were about to fall from your eyes, you hid your hands under your desk as you clutch on your skirt trying to fight away the need to cry.

Just before that, there was a sudden knocking.

The door opened showing the principal with two boys behind him, the principal greeted the class then the two student followed behind him.

"These two gentlemen will be joining you, take care of them." The principal bid good luck before waving as he walks out, the homeroom teacher encourages the two new student to greet themselves.

"Hello, I'm Denji." The boy with blond scruffy hair tiredly wave, the boy beside him was the one who I bumped into just this morning.

"Hello, I'm Yoshida Hirofumi, please take care of me." He smiled just then the girls started shrieking over, even Himari was clearly drooling over him.

Instead of staring I just looked away, not long after he might start joining everyone else dumping homework, essays maybe even ask for cheat sheet in exams. I was ready to expose everyone but I couldn't I was a coward, I don't want my father to lose his job nor my mother to get called by harsh names neither do I want my brother to lose all his friends.

It's such a unjust life, I hate everything yet it never stops even in my dreams I end up crying remembering that one moment things went beyond control.

ꕥ throwback ꕥ

It was November, I messed up again. I lost Mina's notebook even though I swore it might have been at my house they didn't believe me. She got scolded by our history teacher since she was the only one who didn't have homework, she blames it on me because I forgot that her homework was beside my desk, she cussed, hit, punch and even threaten me that my father will lose his job at the corporate.

I had no power, I was weak, I don't have a title neither do I have a chance to stand against them. I cried and cried that day they followed me as I walk home, everyone was there they told me to stand on the bridge.

With shaky legs I followed, I sobbed in front of them as they only took photos and video of me. I begged them to stop, my vision was blurring as I hold tightly to the scarf my brother gave me for my birthday.

"Say it out loud! We can't hear you." One of them shouted, laughter followed.

"I'm a stupid whore, I'm useless, I'm a trash person." I shouted Mina clapped as she walked toward giving out her hand.

"I forgive you." She smiled, just then she suddenly pushed me off the bridge, before I knew it I was falling to the river. In death I never wanted it to be them the last thing I'll see, I want to hear my mother's humming her sweet melodic voice, my brother's endless teasing and he always knock on my door bidding goodnight and I'd kiss his forehead as he rubs it off, and my father. I miss our endless night ride whenever we want he'd even take me out to eat even at late nights.

But wouldn't it be better?

That I'm gone.

They won't be harmed anymore, right?

I felt something moving around me, I felt like I was floating, something moving then splashing.

It was ticklish, I slowly open my eyes I looked around and saw darkness but the water was clear, glowing as I watch thousand of koi swimming around.

"You would be a bitter on to eat." A voice echoed, I looked around only to be met by a female who was naked but her parts was covered by her long dark hair, her eyes were fully black as she has gills on the side of her cheeks, her pointed nose and large fangs that was peaking out of her crimson lips.

She was pale yet with her grisly appearance she look rather elegant yet terrifying.

"I can smell your anger from here, it follows with sadness. I prefer to eat men however my children deliver a woman instead." Her slim pointed fingers caress the koi that swims in her direction.

"I guess you and I know what it feels to be alone. Suffer alone, cry alone, we never learn don't we?" Her voice was sultry, she moves closely it came to my view that her legs were covered in scale, it shimmers with holographic colors appearing she sit beside you as she carefully observes you with her fingers playing with your hair.

"I know, make a deal with me." She said, you looked at her confuse written in your eyes it cause her to giggled as she clasp her hands in delight.

"One thousand years and finally I found a perfect one. I'm the koi devil, I'm not that powerful nor harmful towards humans but I can only assure you wealth, luck and power in life." She hummed tracing her finger on you as she stop in front of you.

"You have no clue, do you?" It came out as a whisper, her face falls into sadness.

"You died, my koi took pity on you. It'd be waste for you to die now don't you think?" Just as she said that I realize I wasn't breathing.

She used her finger pointing to my chest were my heart was. Her bores into mine as she closes the gap her lips was in my ear.

"What do you say kid? Make some risk to live again, don't you want to live?"

ꕥ End of throwback ꕥ

The devil left a koi symbol on my left chest, it doesn't hurt since I have gotten use to it. I woke up in the hospital my parents were outside talking with the doctor and my little brother who was curled up beside the window I could hear him sobbing.

That day I thought meeting the koi devil was just a dream but it wasn't, they don't see it, none of them could see the koi symbol on my chest.

The deal was real she gave endless abundance in our life, a new home a new car we moved out few days after I woke up in the hospital, I move to a different school but nothing changed I was still the same I live the same life that I thought would change, money can't even buy me a new life.

I heard shuffling that instantly stopped me from spacing out.

I realized Yoshida took the seat in front of me while Denji took the seat beside him. He turned as he gave me a smile followed by a wink. I instantly place my palms on my cheeks.

I heard the girls scoff at me, just when the day continues on and the school lunch bell rings I realize I left my wallet it was in a different bag. I dislike about myself is how forgetful I can get.

"Hey aren't you going to get lunch too?" I was surprised Denji talked to me, I just shook my head. Suddenly a gurgling noise coming from stomach made me even more embarrassed.

Yoshida turned around as he place his lunch bag on my table, "I have made a lot this morning, share it with me." He hands me extra chopsticks as Denji drag his chair and sit beside the table before munching down on his own food, they shared jokes and made me laugh every second, Denji who was talking while munching as some few food particles kept spewing out of his mouth only made me laugh since Yoshida kept telling him to stop talking while eating. He even kept giving me more even when I'm starting to feel full he said that seeing me eat makes him full, I wish it stayed as this forever, Yoshida being kind and Denji won't see me different like a trash that everyone calls me.

I begged in my mind, 'please don't let this change.'

After the day, Yoshida was surrounded my girls left and right, I even got pushed and bumped into no one even apologized as they all swarmed him.

"Man, he looks ungrateful if that was me I'd never hesitate to be cocky. I'd feel like I win in life." Denji turned to you as you both walk out, he notice the amount of notebooks you have in your arms as he lend a hand to help you carry them.

But he noticed the name written in front, he can't help but wonder.

"Will you be sending this to the faculty or something? None of these are yours." He mentions, you quickly shook your head but you had no idea what to tell to Denji, you didn't even dare to think you'd tell him the truth.

You heard Yoshida calling out to the two of you, panting as he manage to escape a group of his fangirls.

"Let's go, I don't need more girls around me." The three of you ran off the voices died down, Denji walks home as Yoshida insisted walking you home.

Just as you reach to your place you were quick to bid Yoshida farewell. But he suddenly reaches out to your hand.

"Can you help me in some classes, I don't really want to be left behind plus asking Denji about school is the last thing I'll do since you saw him snoring throughout the day." You giggled as you nodded.

"Great, my place or yours?" You froze, replying 'what'

He suddenly blushed too, since the question sounded a little bit different. "I mean, we can go to a park or library maybe some-"

"I'll meet you to your place instead. My brother tend to be loud since he always bring his friends over, it will only distract us." He nodded, agreeing as he let go his hold to your wrist.

"See you tomorrow." He waves off, just when you enter you mother who was evidently smiling like a mad woman.

"Was that a boyfriend?" She giggle like a teenage girl in love.

"No, he was just nice to walk me home."

"Yeah, definitely not a friend more like boyfriend." She continued to tease.

"You know that's how I end up with your father, eleven years of friendship only after college we got you. Maybe it could be the same with him." You were blushing, as you quickly make your way upstairs.

Days passed, exams were near then after that will be a Hanabi festival you were excited and half hoping that Yoshida would ask you out.

He has been the same since day one in school, he'd walk you home, share his overloaded brought lunch he'd even make you bento, he'd pick you as his partner that makes Denji feel left out but he'd only complain that he hasn't been able to pair up with you, he'd end up getting paired by another student, Denji only likes school for food. Maybe even seeing girls during PE classes, Yoshida would drag him away since he'd be seen as a pervert. Each day felt much different it only felt different since they came, maybe life was starting to much better and that's how you want it to be even when they are the only friends you have you wouldn't dare ask for more.

Maybe you do, because it has only been days that you started to develop feelings for Yoshida. Even if girls swarmed him to no end they had no idea how he really is and you don't even dare tell them everything, you know where he lives, what his personality is like and even watched his favorite movie, he's a good cook and he makes little letters just for you encouraging to always smile.

Today you happily arrived at school, wearing you new ribbon you added light makeup and even sprayed on perfume. You don't care if girls start to push you down as a hobby you did this for Yoshida and for yourself to feel prettier.

Just as you arrived you saw it clear as day. Mina who was sitting on your table, Yoshida was happily chatting with her they were immersed in the conversation they were having. Denji who remained silent and asleep on his table, your heart shatters seeing Yoshida with the girl you hate your whole life every bit of fiber in you wants to end her and you can but you just don't want to be labelled as a killer.

" [Name]!" Your eyes met Yoshida's as he waves at you with that perfect smile, Mina did the same as if pushing you off the bridge never happened. Your body remembers the fear, the feeling and the time you were hospitalized for almost a week.

Mina quickly stood from her seat, jogging towards you as she gave you a tight hug.

"We finally meet again." She whispers to you, pulling away as she giggles. She hook her arm around yours as she tells Yoshida that you and her have been great friends but since you moved out she hasn't been able to contact you.

She kept telling so many stories about you and her, but you didn't got the nerve to stop her, she was spewing lies over lies you only stood there like a fool with lips trembling as you clenching you fist tighter each second with your nails digging deeper in your palms would leave crescent marks.

"We lost contact when she tried to end her life, we tried stopping her but [name] has always had tough life. I miss her though, she was quite handful back then." Mina crosses her legs as she bats her eyelashes, smiling every now and then.

"I see, I never knew about that. I find her incredibly amazing besides we've been seeing each other every now and then." You could hear Mina's irritation, gritting her teeth as she peers over her shoulder to look at you.

"She has no idea how lucky she is." Mina smiles at you, the day went on. Just after class you ignored Denji who doesn't even deserve the cold treatment as well but you were trying to avoid Yoshida, taking bigger steps just when you bumped into Mina and her gang, smirk painted her red lips.

You fell off landing on your butt, Mina reached out her hand causing you to flinch and back away.

But she was quick to grab a handful of your hair, as she pulls it upwards making you wince grabbing her wrist as you plead her to let go.

"No, I just want to know how the hell is this piece of trash still alive." Mina was a mad woman, but she has no idea no one does, you can't die and you won't be because that was the deal with the koi devil, live your life until you die of old age even if you get hit, beaten or bleed out the koi devil always gives you chances to be alive over and over again.

But you won't forget one thing she mentions.

"If you want power, just call out I'll help you finish those disgusting human, but just so you know I love haunting for men."

That day they dragged you by the hair to a empty room, Mina kept hitting you while others laugh, some of which helped Mina giving her a plank of wood or they threatened to burn you.

It was endless and it was painful, you just wish maybe taking the deal wasn't a bright idea. Maybe it was better if you just never live again but you would be so selfish to lave you family.

But this time instead of thinking about them you thought of Yoshida, his smile, his voice the way he looks at you with much care and sincerity it almost felt like heaven, almost because it would be whole if you finally got a kiss from him.

He makes you want to start life all over again, he was the reason why you want to be happy again. He gives comfort even in times he might have no idea you'd need it. Days were you spent inside his apartment, it was only new to you that he was the only one who treats you different even Denji.

It felt nice to be noticed.

Mina kicked your rib causing you to groan, blood coming out of your lips. They left you alone but Mina hasn't moved from her spot. She crouched down with her hand squeezing both of your cheeks making you look at her.

"Hey, Yoshida's mine." She left the silent became loud.

You couldn't move your body, you manage to roll to your side laying on your stomach but you kept coughing and moaning in pain.

Before you know it you started to lose your vision but you swore you heard someone calling you just then you passed out in the cold.

It has been another day you laid in the hospital, Denji came in with an old man with him who claims that he was Denji's guardian. Denji made chocolates and bought flowers even tons of balloons, it made you laugh but you winced since your ribs were broken.

Denji pleads to you to tell him who hurt you but you simply shook your head telling him your alright.

You would hear Yoshida's voice right outside the room asking your parents how you were, they find Yoshida as a friend of yours they were relieved to finally met one of your friends but your father wasn't fond of the idea that it had to be a man, but nonetheless your mother accepted it.

You'd pretend you were asleep when he comes in to your room, you'd hear him carefully carry a chair and sit beside the bed, that was the only time you felt him hold your hand.

It was warm and it made you feel something you can't quite explain.

Even though you were just pretending to fall asleep you wouldn't realize you were drifting off to you dreamland.

But you heard him say, "I'll never let you go, you know I can't your the only one I have left."

The day of examination came, your parents talk to the principal if you can take the exams in the hospital instead since you were still healing, they agreed but your homeroom teacher had to be present that time, it was only the first time she ever showed concern on her stoic face.

Counting down the days it was only three days away from Hanabi festival. You arrived home and your younger brother quickly jumps off to his feet giving you a hug.

Your mother scolded him to be careful, at dinner they were talking about moving out and finding a new place to stay, your father would find another job and you brother promise that when he get bigger and older he'd protect you. It was suppose to make you happy but you didn't feel anything.

It only made you feel worse, they sacrifice their lives to move out, another job, another new school, a so-called new life?

No matter how many money they earn, no matter how many times they say to move out to another home, you just felt like your life was meant to be this way and they had no idea that their daughter made a deal wit the devil.

You ran upstairs, locking you room door as you sobbed covering your face with your pillow. What felt like forever, you were staring off at the ceiling.

"Koi." You whispered.

Suddenly the room became darker and darker, it started to get cold as the candle lantern started flickering.

"You finally summoned me." A sultry voice echoed inside your room.

"I want you to fully come to me, I'll feed you my blood anytime you want." The devil snickered. She wore a rouge off shoulder kimono, her hair softly floating around her back as he left hand holds a long smoking pipe with gray smoke coming out of her crimson lips.

"I just need you to do what you want to do, I don't need your blood just find me a man to eat and stop being this pathetic. You know I saw something in you when I made that deal, I need my sacrifice!" You flinched at the last part, you fed her devils that made her disgusted with taste, she'd bathe in blood to make her young and glowing, her koi fishes swarmed around mid air as she looks stern right in front of you, her chest heaving as she lets out a disappointed noise.

Sitting down to your bed, she crosses her long arms.

"Kill them for my satisfaction even if it's a woman I'll bathe in her blood, but don't you think I can you ogling over this boy. Sadly I can't eat him." She pouted, you looked at her with your brows knitted close.

"How come?" That's when she smirk reaching to her eyes.

"Denji is a chainsaw devil, he smells delicious but I'm not after him but the boy you like also is a devil hunter. Just like you he has a deal with a devil." She stood up making her way towards you as she brush her pointy fingers on you face.

"It's simple, just come up to him that's all." She left and the room became bright, you felt your brother shaking you from your dreams.

You quickly opened you eyes and sat up, your brother was worried. You opened your arms as he gives in to give you a hug.

"I thought you were having a bad dream, so I had to wake you up." His words caused you to smiled, hugging him tight as he bid goodnight.

As he left only seconds later your phone ringed, it showed Yoshida's name on your call screen.

You picked it up, he asked you to look right outside the window. There he waved with both his arms as he looked happy and relieved to see you.

Maybe just this time again, take some risk then later on you can do what your devil wishes you to do.

It was around midnight, Yoshida drove you around you just wanted his moment to last forever, he took you to his place as he promise to cook late night dinner he even stole few alcohol from Kishibe, he was surprise he hasn't realize it just yet.

As you both moved the food to the coffee table, he turned on the movie as you slurp your noodles.

Everything was going quite well, that's until half of the second bottle was finished, the first bottle was now being used to spin, you exchanged questions as he listened to every detail.

He sat beside you on the floor, he was pretty close the distance was non existent.

Slowly by slowly, his hands move a strand of hair but his eyes stared to yours as he moves closer with his hand cupping you face.

His lips met yours, soft and hungry, and he took the kiss with the tenderness of a promise.

Your body moving on top of him as you straddle him, his hands resting on your waist as the kiss started to get more intense.

You started to unbutton your top while his hand snake down to your legs, his hands resting on your thighs made you feel warm. He moves to kiss your neck, light whimpers coming out of your lips only ignites Yoshida to keep going.

He pulls you down to his crotch, your underwear would be wet by now and he would feel it too. You moved as you humped on him, he groans throwing his head back.

You move your hands feeling his body underneath his white shirt, you kept moving and moving until you feel something coming down to you.

"Keep going doll." His lips was close to your ear, each grunt and pant of his breath was just making you even wetter.

Suddenly a knock came, causing you both to stop.

"Hey! I got snacks, I couldn't sleep neither can Nayuta." It was Denji, Yoshida groaned. You carefully went off him, you turned away but Yoshida was quick to move.

He had both his hands on your waist pulling you into a long kiss. Before he rest his forehead on yours.

"What are you doing to me?" He whispers, his eyes meeting yours only causing you to melt.

You fixed your clothes and hid the bottles away, you tied your hair into a bun. Yoshida quickly puts on a sweater since he still had a evident bulge on his pants.

He opens the door a grumpy looking Denji comes into view with a girl hiding behind him, "you took forever to open the damn door." Denji comes in as he notice you were here, his frown instantly turned into a smile as he became a puppy towards you.

You met Nayuta and they had to explain who she was but Denji just metions that she was his younger sister.

The day went the same however your mother allowed you to skip school, she started to speculate something might be stressing out out perhaps your classmates or the school, she couldn't stop thinking what it could be but you reassured her that you were alright.

You jumped happily, you waited for Yoshida to ask you if you wanted to go see the fireworks.

It was around one thirty, your mother came knocking to your room telling you there was a boy who was wanting to see you. You happily jogged down the stairs, passing by your brother whose face was smudge in chocolate.

You opened the door, suddenly your smile turn downward. It was Denji who was leaning by the cement wall, he noticed you as he idly waves.

"Schools boring without you." Denji says making you giggled. You tried to hide your disappointment that it wasn't Yoshida.

"I'm actually here to ask you if you want to see the fireworks with me, Yoshida went out to ask Mina." Your heart sank on the ground. Did people really see you as nothing. Not even a human, not close?

You swore you heard the koi devil's laughter, it made you slightly uneasy. But rejecting Denji wasn't your choice you just simply agreed.

You went back in as Denji bids goodbye, he promise to pick you up early. You head back in your father was going to be late as the three of you have dinner.

You told your mother you have a date tomorrow, she was quick to her feet finding the perfect Yukata for you to wear.

She laid everything out for you, you wish you just as excited as her but you tried to cheer yourself up, Denji was nice enough to ask you why can't you just be grateful?

That night, you had nightmares it was throwing you back into the past, everything started to haunt you down again it was even difficult to wake up you could hear Mina and the others. You woke up with tears in your eyes, you sat up pushing your legs close to your chest as you let a sob out.

The morning came as your grandparents bought Wagashi and Mochi since it was you and your youngers brother's favorite snacks, your mother made tea as your father hugs her mother but he got scolding since we haven't visited them in awhile.

Later on that day your grandmother and mother helped you put on your Yukata, your grandmother even gave you a hairpiece she keeps that has been passed down since Teisho era. It was covered in gold, emerald and tiny diamonds.

The family were amazed by how you look, you turned to the mirror you thought you started to look like the koi devil herself, maybe she was becoming fully with you. The long silky dark hair, pale skin and eyes like cat, instead of feeling fear you were feeling over confident and powerful.

They can't see the koi symbol on your left chest, you lightly rubbed it you felt pleasure like how it was nights ago when you made out with Yoshida, your eyes falling back to the mirror you saw the koi devil smirking at you.

You read her lips, suddenly the doorbell rings.

Your father answered it, he wasn't please to see a boy, and that boy was Denji.

He wore a navy colored yukata with black sandals. You bid your family goodbye's but your father had a stern look on Denji which made the poor boy uncomfortable.

He points to Denji, "No touching, no kissing, no cooties and I'm not hearing any objections." He received a slap on his chest from his wife.

"Ignore your old man, have fun you two!" She waves off as your brother just wave as well while eating mochi.

You two walked around stall to stall, trying games and buying food. Denji was enjoying himself but you were looking around the crowd trying to find Yoshida, Denji tugged your sleeve as he points to another game stall.

It was stall that has ropes above, you have to pull which ever rope to get a price. Denji was drooling over the ninetendo but he also wants the stuff toy and even the large sack of rice crackers.

In the end he got a bag of fluffly heart shaped marshmallows, he offered you some as you finished the whole bag of strawberry filled jelly marshmallows. Darkness was about to envelope the sky after the hues of orange, red and gold strikes of the sunset was gone in a matter of minutes. The host was announcing that the firework show will be starting in thirty minutes.

You were still unable to find Yoshida, you were starting to doubt he'd ever come.

You sat down waiting for Denji as he was buying yakisoba and hot green tea.

You removed your sandals, glancing back down to your phone he hasn't even called you today.

"I'm back." Denji hands you the warm yakisoba and a hot bottled green tea. You thanked him as you ate for the millionth time today.

Fifteen second before the firework begin your phone started to ring, you excused yourself.

You picked up the call it was Yoshida, you started to feel as if you were in the clouds.

"Yoshida, where are you?" You asked but he answered with a flat voice.

"Meet me at the parking lot, don't bring anyone with you." The phone call dropped, you look back to Denji he was busy eating his fifth cotton candy. You swear he eats so much you wonder if he ever gets full.

You walked towards the parking lot, there you saw Yoshida's back facing you there wasn't much cars parked around the area but it had the best view seeing the festival from up here the lights and people crowding around you had no idea it was much better to look from here.

Yoshida turns to you but he had blood stains on his clothes.

"I missed you, three days without you feels more than a torture." He opens his arms for you to take but you couldn't move to your spot.

"Y-Yoshida... You're clothes are-." You shakily pointed at him.

He looks down as if it was a normal thing, then you remembered what the koi devil said.

"That boy you like, is just like you made a deal with a devil."

You covered your lips, you started to shake like a leaf.

"This isn't mine, but you know what I want to hear from you instead?" He chuckles, pushing his hair back before he turns his gaze back on you.

"It's from Mina, that psycho freak thinks she owns the whole world in her hand, I saw everything even that time she killed you, yeah, I exposed her and her precious family now their on the brink of death. I like it, even when she begged me to save her, I killed the same way she tried to kill, I wanted to torture her more but I can't let my baby wait for me much longer no?" He started to move closer but you didn't backed away.

"Next was her friends." He pulls out a knife from his pocket, swirling it with his index finger.

"I. haunt. each. and. every. one. of. her sluts." He giggled.

"You didn't know but she slept with all of her friends, she's the nasty little whore here not you, you are my precious angel what you do to me makes me crave you more and more everyday it just gets stronger. Next was our homeroom teacher, yeah, you had no idea but she had slept with Mina's father little bitch thinks she can change her life by becoming the new wife guess what per request she must not show concern that day she was there in the hospital when you had your exam I was the one who threatened her after that she begged like never before." He wipes off the blood from the knife with his sleeve.

"I killed her, nice and clean then dumped her body beside Mina's precious father, he dead too because he dares hurt my baby that's unforgiveable to me."

Just the the first firework explodes in the air, the red color shone you see it clearer that he was covered from head to toe and he look like a maniac.

"Lastly was Himari, I fed her to my devil. I knew you have one too it makes me happy that this way we won't be too strangers with one another. I know that koi symbol you have." He points with his index finger as you backed away.

Moving and moving as he only comes closer and you can't help it, you can't move it almost feels like something holding you down.

As a large stone wall met your back Yoshida was quick to block your side trying to escape him.

"I'll always keep my promise, you're mine after all." He uses the knife to cute your front he tugs down on your left sleeve to reveal the symbol.

"We're powerful that they'll ever know."