Follow Your Passion: A Seamless Tumblr Journey
So I was talking the other day about my time in the hospital and I was joking about it because how else do you cope with something so overwhelming.
“Hah yeah it’s been a while not that I miss it, the cameras, the restraints,” I think for a moment “ it’s been a year” I say quietly. My smile fades “It’s been a year” I know I wasn’t there as long as the others and I know I’ve since had a better experience in another hospital and I know that I lied my way out. But it’s been a year.
And I didn’t think I’d make it another year.
“You were the only one I could count on.”
“No. I wasn’t.” I hate how he couldn’t just understand that. I hate how he makes it seem that he needs me. Like if I’m not there he’ll die.... And to think I used to like him. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t hate him... I just don’t want to have anything to do with him right now.
“What do you mean?” I read as he responds to my text.
“I am not the only one. You have a family. A mom, a dad, and you have siblings. You have other friends beside me. So just leave me alone.” As I send it, I contemplate whether or not it was the right way to go. I did mean what I said.... but I also didn’t. I did mean it when I said I wasn’t the only one. What I didn’t mean was when I told him I wanted to be left alone. I just wanted us to go back to the way things used to be. Before all of this mess came to be.
“Goodbye.”
Before I can get a reply I block him. As the phone becomes blurry I realize that I’m crying.... I wish this never happened.
Special thanks to @writing-is-ruining-my-life for the awesome prompt!
“You were the only one I could count on.”
“No. I wasn’t.”