Muscle Pain - Blog Posts

It’s so weird having my physical health tank when my mental health is the best it’s ever been.

Like whenever someone asks me how I am I’m just like “well my bones hurt, and my muscles hurt, and I can work maybe 3 hours a day before I collapse from chronic fatigue. But like the world keeps on turning, so I’m vibing dude B) ”

Really wish all the “low impact” exercise routines I find weren’t hyper focused on like squats and lunges and shit. Like bro, my knees DO NOT WORK. They simply do not function properly. If I do 15 squats today I’m not going to be able to walk properly for literal days.

…….but like I’m so tired and I NEED to work out to help with my fatigue, and I don’t have the attention span for yoga right now. So I do the five bajillion squats anyway.

And I’m stupid so I forget that that’s a bad idea, so when I’m in an incredible amount of pain just walking up and down the stairs for the rest of the week, I’ll be like

Yo I tried a new anti-inflammatory for my joint pain and it works AWESOME

unfortunately it is also making me EXTREMELY DEPRESSED so I am going to have to stop taking it immediately

yaaaaaaay :)

I’m not TECHNICALLY diagnosed with lupus yet, because I have to see the rheumatologist for more tests. But my ANA is crazy, I definitely have some kind of autoimmune disorder, and I tested negative for RA and Sjögren's syndrome, so like. It’s PROBABLY lupus.

And I’m tired of saying I have “something” or “some weird autoimmune thing” or whatever. I just wanna put a name on it, and right now, that name is lupus.

The duality of “I should get up and move around, it’ll help with my pain” vs. “I can’t move at all, I’m in too much pain”

Like yeah, if you struggle with chronic pain you should try exercise, because it probably will help. But in order for exercise to even be an option, you have to be in an at least semi-manageable amount of pain to begin with.