I'm A Former Janitor. Sanitation Adds At Least 20 Years To Our Average Life Expectancy, Maybe 30. Sanitation

Okay, here's a rainbow compass. I've made a lot of progress on my self-esteem. I think maybe now I will start working on my sense of gratitude. Today, I am thankful for my delicious cup of coffee.

I tried to quit nicotine again yesterday. Cue the instability and mental screaming. I couldn't do it. I bought some more nicotine. Panhandling annoys the conservatives, and it will pay for my nicotine. I really need to get out there and panhandle. The worst thing that could happen is a mugger tries to kill me and take my money. I am a giant. I have never been mugged before. The first person who tries to mug me gets to find out what it's like to have all their joints dislocated one by one. But that probably won't happen. I'll take a picture of the panhandling spot and post a tracing this evening.

I mowed the lawn today. Also, I guess I'm quitting nicotine today. So that's nice. I'll let you all know how that's going. I'm going to try to sleep off the nicotine withdrawal for a while.

I have trouble making friends Maybe I will write a poem View the problem through a lens Welcome them into my home Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and I have the potential to do good things.

∅ Hi, Blue here. ∅ I deleted number 6, and made a new version. This is number 8, not counting the deleted one. I am a real star!

I did some yard work today to make a little money. Tomorrow, I need to get up bright and early and panhandle. I did not choose to be disabled. I deserve to live well. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and it is not selfish of me to ask for help.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I have to take a mental health break from the art therapy today. I expect I will have a drawing up tomorrow. At the moment, I draw stick figures with great difficulty. But I guess art is my hobby now. I feel like I need a creative outlet immediately right now, and these scribblings are all that I can do.

Anyway, I'll be back tomorrow. Take care.

I slept all day today. I wish I didn't hate myself so much. I really have a lot of self-hate. Forgiving myself is something I'm working on. Being angry at myself for being disabled is so cruel and bigoted. I just want the mental screaming to stop, so I can rest.

Frankly, I am getting tired of these "daily affirmations." There are better ways to boost my self-esteem. One more affirmation, perhaps. My name is Blue. I am undefined. I defy explanation. I am a random person who has had a random life.

Happy midnight! The old day is gone, and good riddance to it. This is a new day! And every day can be the start of a new era.