I Tried To Quit Nicotine Again Yesterday. Cue The Instability And Mental Screaming. I Couldn't Do It.

∅ Hi, my name is Blue! ∅ I drew my first Blue! Aren't you proud of me?

My self-esteem was based on my job But it seems I am too mentally-disabled to work I guess my self-esteem is based on my art hobby now

I did some yard work today to make a little money. Tomorrow, I need to get up bright and early and panhandle. I did not choose to be disabled. I deserve to live well. Daily Affirmation: My name is Blue, and it is not selfish of me to ask for help.

I lost my job. Affirmation of the Day: My name is Blue, and my existence has value.

Ugh, the lyrics that I wrote are so bad. I'm done trying to write lyrics. Vocals don't have to have words. I have to push through this mental fog and try to actually make good music. Waking up from deep depression is so hard, but it is possible. Mental effort will help to clear the fog away.

One thing that I had to learn after my fundamentalist upbringing Is that it's not always healthy to forgive people. We shouldn't always turn the other cheek, And we shouldn't love our enemies.

I mowed the lawn today. Also, I guess I'm quitting nicotine today. So that's nice. I'll let you all know how that's going. I'm going to try to sleep off the nicotine withdrawal for a while.

I am addicted to the hatred of others in my community. Dear hometown, I drink your hatred of me like the finest craft root beer. I will never stop panhandling. I will never stop begging. Because your hatred makes me feel alive. All I am doing is asking for help. The more everyone in my community hates me, the more confident I am in my moral superiority. I don't care about your money, hometown. That is just a bonus. I want you to give me all of your disgusting, evil hatred for the poor, because I love it!

Okay, here's a rainbow compass. I've made a lot of progress on my self-esteem. I think maybe now I will start working on my sense of gratitude. Today, I am thankful for my delicious cup of coffee.

∅ Hi, I'm Blue! ∅ I put the letters on the side this time. I'm so talented!